The heatwave and rain finally ended so yesterday Beja and I were able to get back outside again and I really missed it(I think he did,too) and we spent all day out, all morning and afternoon! I was wondering why I was so hot though when the high was forecasted to be only 23C so I came in and checked the weather and it was actually 28C with a humidex of 32C so that was why! Here I thought it was just my hormones with menopause! HA! I also saw the funniest thing: a squirrel chasing a chipmunk out of a tree so I guess it must have been his tree and he didn't want any visitors. My hubby also cut that big 20 foot or so tree branch that fell into smaller pieces using a chainsaw and luckily passed the finger count test and still has all 10 fingers left afterwards which is a good thing since I don't drive and couldn't drive him to the ER and by the time an ambulance arrives( I've had to wait 25 minutes before!) he'd bleed out.Plus, they'd still make him wait 8-12 HRS to be seen and then just say it's "Just a small cut" and give him a Band-Aid. My abdomenal pain is bad enough for the ER too but I'm not waiting 8-12 HRS. I'd rather sit outside in the sun and just wait it out and whatever happens, happens.
My abdomenal and back pain was also sooooo bad yesterday I just wanted to scream it from the mountains, hilltops and valleys and Beja could sense I was in really rough shape too as he wouldn't leave my side all day and at naptime he even slept on my pillow right beside my head to keep a closer eye on me instead of entwined in my legs like he usually does and it's these long, hot, hazy, lazy summer days with crickets, cicadas, milkweed, wildflowers, etc.that I cherish and love and that memories last for years and one of my fave. childhood memories is riding horses bareback thru a field and in the woods.
It felt like total freedom.
Yesterday for some unknown bizarre reason I was also locked out of my Apple account "for security reasons" and all the songs on my iPod disappeared so naturally I was shitting bricks but my hubby was thankfully able to recover some of them but not all, only 400 or so and I HAD over 2K......so where are all the others and what happened and why does this shit always happen to me all the time? I also went to check and see if the laundry was dry and then realized I'd forgotten to even put it in the dryer and it was 4 hours later. I'm really "losing" it and yesterday seemed to also "drag" on and go by really slow and when it was just 2 pm for instance it felt like it should have been much later like at least 4 or 5 pm and I figure if aliens DO exist they're probably much nicer than humans are and if not and I die at least I'll be with God and when I was younger I used to hope and pray I would get better-looking when I grew up but now I'm older it's even worse: not only am I still ugly but now with menopause I'm also fat,too!
I didn't lose my faith in God.
I lost my faith in humanity.
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