Ein Guten Tag.

First day of spring ( Finally!) and Buddy and I spent 4 hours outside in the sun! It was a good day!

Here we are, all snuggled up enjoying the feeling of the sun on our faces, which is one of the 

best feelings in the world! This photo sums up our friendship just perfectly,too, best friends forever, always side-by-side, enjoying the Little Things in life together.

We are so alike and have so much in common, we both even like to be outside, smelling the fresh air and soaking up the sun. There's nothing like it. I even got some sun on my face. My first "burn" of the season.

Hey, I also got the Dukoral prescription from my doctor ok and the drug plan at my hubby's work did cover the 80%  so I take my first does( out of 2) this weekend and then again another a week before my trip. It guards and protects against The Shits and Cholera. Probably esp. an extra good precaution for someone like me who already has IBS in the first place. My hubby also said my total cost of medication for the year was a whopping 5 thousand $$$$! Holy shit! Luckily we only pay 20% of that but even still.....can you imagine without a drug plan having to pay the whole thing? Who the hell could afford it? Geez....being sick is sure expensive! Maybe I should seriously consider going on Disability, even if just for the drug coverage as with any other gov't plan they pay 100% of drug benefits....

My hubby also sabotaged the Google Home somehow now too so now it only recognizes and responds to his voice and not to mine; whenever I try to add to the shopping list, make a reminder, alter the name, etc. it says it doesn't recognize my voice and has to be programmed to do so on the Google Home app.....he says it must just be an update....(yeah....right....) but I know better. I know he did something to re-program it that way so I can't use it and have fun with it anymore. Yet another way he tries to control me. He thinks he's the boss of me but he's not. I'm NOT one of the kids, and when I kept trying to find a way around it he admonished me as Stop always being so stubborn! but he's NOT going to control me. I won't let him. No one controls me.

I worry about the 24 YR old as well; he increasingly says things that I'm picking up as possible signs of depression and hints of suicidal thoughts and it concerns me and I've mentioned it to him and told him he should look into it but he just dismisses it and at his age I have no legal authority over him anymore and I know I can't "force" him into getting help or into treatment; it has to come from him but it really concerns me, as does his lack of motivation, purpose and meaning in life...