Sunny Friends.

Yesterday I once again transplanted my baby sunflowers into a bigger pot as they had outgrown their other pot. I also put them outside now they are bigger and stronger. I didn't have enough Miracle-Gro enriched potting soil so I had to go and dig up some regular soil from our garden by the side of our house and mix it up with what I had and then I replanted them into this and at night I covered them up with a lid and put this plastic scary-looking owl in the doorway of the thing to scare away the squirrels plus also a mousetrap in the entrance so they won't dig up and uproot and kill the plants like the little f*ckers did last year and it just broke my heart. I also sprinkled cayenne pepper all around the plants as I heard it's supposed to repel them. So far so good; they survived the first night and I'm pretty much outside there all day to keep an eye on them anyway. I was so winded, out of breath and sweaty afterwards I thought I was either going to pass out or have a heart-attack and the sweat was just pouring off me and dripping off my head all down my face and I had to go lay down in the shade and cool off. I now have the sunflowers on the porch at the back, in a spot that gets the most sunlight for the longest and also where I get to see them and enjoy them. I just hope they make it......

Everyone's also in Ottawa except for the 24 YR old, Buddy and I from last evening and all day today, giving me a nice quiet relaxing day at home. It's just like my Old Life before, with no chaos, stress, noise, or hassle. It's really nice and peaceful and I can just do what I want at a leisurely pace and not have to keep track of the time, worry what time it is, prepare meals (I just cooked a pizza for us) follow any sort of schedule, etc. and no one here provoking me, or being mean, insulting, mouthing-off, saying cruel hateful untrue things such as I'm a lesbian because I have short hair or that I have sex with Buddy, etc. and it's nice and quiet and with no one here to tease Buddy and get him going he hasn't barked at all it's such a nice break. I could get used to this. Last night I sat out on the porch and smoked a doobie and just enjoyed the peace and quiet and didn't have to listen to anyone bitching, Are you smoking weed? it stinks like weed in here! I can also just watch the news in peace, and no one here to hog up all the water before I can have my bath, or to constantly remind me how stupid and annoying I am, etc. The only thing is the 24 YR old keeps hanging around me as he's lonely and wants company and doesn't like to be alone and I love him dearly and he's always been one of my favourites of the kids but I was kind of hoping to have a couple of nice days to just be left alone by myself .