Worried.

I'm worried about Buddy: for the past 2 days he's had blood in his shit again and not just a little bit but lots; at the end of his shit it oozes or drips out and often with chunks of blood and mucus in it ( as seen in the photo here, I put it up to prove that it's not a delusion; that I'm not imagining it but it's indeed very real) and what also looked like chunks of flesh and I noticed as well that it doesn't happen every time he shits though, only when he gets the diarrhrea, but when he has the formed turds there's no bleeding, making me wonder if the diarrhrea somehow aggravates whatever is causing the bleeding, such an anal fissure, inflamed anal glands or hemmoroid maybe.... It also doesn't happen during the entire process of shitting but only ever at the very end, indicating the bleeding is most likely at the very end of his intestinal tract or anus, and it might be something like colitis esp. combined with the diarrhrea and I know there are certain foods he can no longer tolerate so I with-held food for 24 HRS(to give his GI tract a rest) and it seemed to work: the next shit after was a formed turd( no more diarrhrea!) and no more blood.....

I hope that's really all it is though and nothing more serious like a tumour or something causing internal bleeding but he doesn't act sick though, that's the thing; he's still playing and eating like usual and everything else is normal except for the blood in his shit. I worry so much though and the more you love someone the more you worry about losing them, or at least I do.He's my best friend and the only joy and light in my life. If I lost him I'd never get over it and nothing would get me thru it. I would just be so empty, lost and alone. He's really the only emotional support I've got , my only ally in this house, the only thing that keeps me going, that I live for, that gets me up each day, that keeps me alive, that brings me any happiness in life, that loves me, he means so much to me and to lose him would just be catastrophic. I've lost dogs before and it's hard and I grieved and gotten over it but this time is different; to me he's more than just a dog; he's the one who's always been here for me, loved me, gotten me thru so much, always been by my side, comforts me, keeps me company, is my constant companion, best friend, confidant, and soul-mate,only in animal form. To lose him would be to lose a big part of myself. He turns 14 in a few days and I gave him his present ( a nice steak!) early, you know, just in case, because you never know, and I wanted to make sure he enjoys it because tomorrow isn't promised.

I also wonder why PM Trudeau doesn't grow a pair and arrest the protesters who have been blocking the rail lines for nearly 2 weeks now, halting all rail( commercial and passenger). I agree with Native rights and all that but I'm sick and tired of all this Enviro crap, and I agree with peaceful protests but once it starts hurting the economy ( this country relies heavily on rail transport) and being disruptive it's time to do something and out a stop to it. Why should a small vocal minority be allowed to disrupt the majority? I think he's just too concerned with his image he doesn't have the balls(and this country is also so wishy-washy and half-assed,too) to take a real stand and actually govern and have them arrested and just hauled off and re-open the rail routes and get the oil pipelines built and do what's best for the economy instead of his ratings, image, and photo-Ops. He should also lose the beard,too; it's not doing him any favours. He used to be so good-looking before(still an asshole, but good-looking) but now it just makes him look old, so no.