23 Years.

Disgraced Hollywood producer Harvey Weinstein was sentenced to 23 YEARS in jail for sexual assault. I have to say I was surprised, as usually people with great power, wealth, and influence can "buy" their way out and end up not serving any time or at the very least not much and in a "Country Club"-style prison, but not this time. Just like with Bill Cosby, the time has come to pay the consequences for his actions and now it seems society is taking a much harder stance on sex abuse and holding predators accountable. He has no one to blame but himself though; it's his own doing and he did it to himself but I still do feel kind of "badly" for the guy though since his entire life's been destroyed; his wife divorced him, his kids likely hate him and will probably never talk to him again, he lost his business and his reputation, he'll likely never get out of jail and will either end up committing suicide in there or get killed.....I just can't revel in someone's life falling completely apart no matter who they are or what they've done; it's still tragic and sad, and I pray for him; partly because no one else will probably think to and because he needs it the most. I also think 23 YRS is  kind of harsh though, considering most people don't even get that long for murder.

The other day I was also feeling really-extra loved by God as well; the night I woke up and heard a voice warning me about my BP pills, and it just utterly blew me away that He cares so much, for me, that He would send a warning personally to me like that, and it touched me deeply and really made me feel loved and like I was worth something and that I actually mattered, if God Himself cared enough about me to send me a warning, a feeling I've never really felt in my life; loved, valued, accepted, wanted, worthy......and then when I told my mother about it she dismissed it and tried to take it away from me( which was really hurtful; she wouldn't even let me have that) downplaying it by saying God loves everyone, not just YOU!  digging it in that I'm NOT "special", which I already know, but it just felt nice to be reminded that He cares; that He loves me and that I do matter to Him, that even out of billions of people I as one lowly individual DO still matter and am loved by God and it just made my heart expand and glow like it never had before, and she had to go ruin it because that's what she does. That's what she's always done.

I also heard on the news someone in our town has tested positive for the Coronavirus; someone who came back from a cruise ship so now they've been quarantined and isolated, and the 20 YR old had her Wisom Teeth removed yesterday and as far as I know she had the whole Big Deal; knocked-out and druuged-up and when I had mine done a few years ago all I had was just local freezing injected and Tylenol. I only had it because they were infected though and don't think it's worth the risk( drug reactions, bleeding, infection) otherwise and if they don't cause any problems just leave them. It's like why take out a gallbladder or appendix just because it's there? Only if it gets infected, not just for the hell of it.The TV remote was also lost for several days and my hubby eventually found it wedged tightly in his recliner chair and the kids are convinced he purposely hid it there just to make them look all over for it but he says he didn't and I think we should attach it by a leash, cord, or chain or something like they have with the pens at the bank so it won't get lost.

Yesterday the mail lady also had me translate a parcel that came from Russia and even though I was stoned and groggy still half-asleep from being woken from a nap by the doorbell I was still able to, much to her delight9 yes, I am amazing) and I noticed Buddy's balls look all black, leather-y, and shrivelled and it could be testicle or prostate cancer but he's NOT displaying "feminine" behaviours like he would with prostate cancer( due to estrogen production) though such as squatting, and he's still urine marking and humping) and at least if it's testicle cancer it's usually benign not malignant and rarely spreads....I just worry so much  about him( just like I do with the kids) because I love him so much! The 25 YR old also got this Warhammer character that has 4 titties and I just thought that was the most amazing thing ever and I sure would have loved to have had 4 titties when the kids were babies as it would have made breastfeeding alot easier and quicker!