Yay!

Yay! Buddy seems to be feeling better, or at least yesterday he was anyway, unless he was just having a good day, but after not eating for 3 days yesterday his appetite was back and he ate everything in sight! he ate 2 plates of chicken, 2 slices of cheese, a hamburger patty and whatever he mooched off my hubby and I when we ate! He'd told me before his mouth hurt so it's hard to eat with a sore mouth so hopefully it was just a rotten tooth or something that's better now( that might also explain his fetid Death Breath as well) but I was really worried not eating for 3 days and just sleeping all the time  that he was approaching death as with a terminal illness that's what the body does; it shuts down and doesn't require food and you stop eating and sleep all the time, and last year he did tell me he has cancer and he is 14 afterall, which is old for a dog, and would make him like in his 90's in human age. 

I'm just so glad and relieved to see he's feeling better now and perking up and eating again. I was so worried and so scared I really thought it was the end and I was losing him. He's like my adopted child but I love him as if he were my own, and, in fact, he loves me more than my own kids do,and I love him back accordingly, and to lose him would utterly destroy me. I am grateful for each day now that I still have with him and I just take each day as it comes and enjoy each day we still have together. It feels like our days are numbered and we are living on "borrowed" time  and every morning I wake up and see he's still there alive beside me I breathe a sigh of relief and gratitude and I praise and thank God for yet another day I get to spend with him. There will never be another dog( or friend) like him.

I was also thinking the other day how much my life has changed since we no longer have $$$. We used to be well-off but not any more, not for YRS, not since the economy crashed and my hubby lost alot of $$$$ in stocks and the gov't stole alot of my $$$$ and my mother retired and we lost an entire salary, etc. and back then I'd go to the pricey cosmetic counters in the malls and buy expensive beauty products and walk away with a small fancy bag with 150$-200$ worth of face creams and cleansers, etc. from Estee Lauder, Chanel, Elizabeth Arden, Shiseido, etc. and now I make do with the 10$ face creams from Nivea and the 12$ body lotions from Wal-Mart or the drugstore, and I used to buy 100$ clothing+ apiece  every week at the shopping malls and now I just get discount stuff at cheap prices at the CNE and I used to shop at exclusive baby boutiques and children's shops in the city for the kids' clothes where one infant's outfit cost 95$ and now the youngest gets his clothes second-hand at the thrift store( the others work and buy their own clothes now) and I used to buy the pricey 30$ shampoo at the hair salons and now I just get the 3$ ones at Wal-Mart along with the 2$ deoderant....Life has changed so much. My life isn't the same anymore. I don't even recognize my life or myself anymore.