Insurance.

Yesterday insurance called again about the tree that broke our fence and originally they said they'd cover the cost of replacing that part of the fence that got damaged( quoted at 1400$) but now  they said they'll only pay 800$ and that they found a guy that will do it for that so we said OK, but then they told us we'd first  have to pay 500$ of it ourselves and they'd only be covering the 300$ rest of it and then that our premiums would also go waaay up if we made a claim! Seriously? WTF? What's hardly even the point then( which is what I'm sure they're hoping......) What a bunch of dirty, rotten, crooked shysters!!!! We dutifully and faithfully pay our premiums ,with the intention of we have property damage we file a claim and they pay for the damage. Afterall, that's how INSURANCE is supposed to work!! They're always trying to cheat people, my God, and I can remember too after our fire we had an issue with insurance too(different company) trying to cheat us and get away with paying less ( we ended up with 250 K) an example of that would be our antique piano: they balked at the cost of having it restored, saying it was too expensive.....until the contractor working on our house( who also knows about pianos) verified for us that it would cost 10K to try to replace it. There were other issues too we had to haggle and argue with them about too but we finally ended up getting our settlement. 

What nerve though; you pay  for a service when the time comes( you hope never does but you're prepared if it does) and when it does they try and back out of their end of the deal even though you've been paying $$$ into  it for all those years...but try to make a claim and they always have to make it difficult. As for the fence I don't know what  we're going to do now. Maybe just leave it, as we certainly don't have the $$$$ ( and we had to pay to get the tree removed,too) or like my hubby said Just keep adding it to our line of credit.... a debt that will probably never be paid off, at least not in our lifetime. I also left my patio cushions outside last night as it wasn't supposed to rain, except it did and now they're all wet so I tossed them into the dryer and now I can hear them bouncing and thumping around in there and today's just a cold, rainy inside day I have to clean out my bong anyway; all caked with black, gooey sticky residue, and cool,too: my friend I( from grade 8) also got a Mustang (I LOVE those cars!) a red one with black stripe on the hood and her and her husband keep bees too and make and sell honey.

I also decided to take a chance and go ahead an order calendars for next year anyway afterall, hoping 2021 will show up (and it's not a waste of $$$) and even if I die before then someone else can still use them, like put them up in the kitchen and livingroom or something, and I got 2: a Bob Marley and a sunflowers( pictured here) and since it cost over 35$ I also got free shipping! Yahoo! Swatting bugs I also take the fly-swatter and say, Serve! like in badminton or tennis (I can still remember as a kid saying it like this: soive! Bugs Bunny-style, which makes me smile thinking about it, and sometimes I still do just for laughs) so I kill wasps and flies with grace, elegance, and style, and for the past few days I've been really  itchy too, esp. arms and head, indicating either my kidneys or liver( or perhaps both?) are acting-up again, and I feel "full" as well with less appetite and don't feel too hungry and have to "force" myself to eat( normally I'm ravenous) which is another sign, and feel nauseated at times as well and my abdomenal and back pain is still really bad,too, esp. my back; so bad sometimes I think I'm going to pass out from the pain, and I have a bad cough,too.

I'm still struggling with religion as well: part of me thinks Judaism might be the True faith since they were there first, are referred to as God's Chosen People and had the original Scriptures (Old Testament) before the others (New Testament and Koran) were added to it.....but then they also deny Jesus and I'm NOT willing to give up Jesus; whether He's God's Son  or not(or a prophet) I have no doubt He existed and was sent from God, and although I do miss the fellowship and friendship of the people of Jehovah's Witnesses and LDS there's just so much other stuff, Scriptural stuff or rituals that I don't agree with, plus I also found out later that it's not true love or true friendship, but rather something called love-bombing  they use to welcome new "recruits" and it's conditional only upon being a member and a part of the group and once you leave they shun you, whereas real love and friendship endures and would still continue even after, so they're not real friends, and I find I most believe the Islamic doctrine found in the Koran, esp. regarding God ,prayer,and faith, but so many things are haram( forbidden) so many rules and I'm a free-spirit and I don't do well with rules and being made to conform and God made me this way; He created me an individual, a free-thinker, and I don't do well under scrutiny, conformity, unity, rules and regulations, etc, and I do miss our church but don't believe in certain things( such as the Trinity, praying to Jesus, Mary, Saints, etc) and feel like a hypocrite, I shouldn't be there if I don't really believe....I think the best thing for me( at least for now,anyway until I can get this thing figured out) is to just worship God privately on my own( as my strong faith in Him never wavered) my own  way, without anyone telling how, or what to do, or what to believe, still  being myself  without structured man-made religion telling me what to do and who to be and how to do it; just go by faith. Faith without limit, faith without rules, just faith from my heart.