I Knew It!!

My cousin B called yesterday and she said she got the Flu vaccine( that even her own doctor and my doctor don't get; they must know something the rest of us don't) and she got partial paralysis and ended up in the hospital for 12 days with adverse side-effects and still has to go back monthly for IV's. Everyone I know that's ever had it has always had such bad reactions they ended up in the ICU which is why I've never had it(or anyone in my immediate family) and just take my chance with the Flu and I only ever get it maybe once every 15 years at the most. She said she's done with it; no more Flu vaccines, no Corona virus vaccine, no more vaccines ever. I also wonder how long it will be until the gov't tyrants will start deporting those of us who refuse the new Corona virus vaccine off to internment/detention/dissident/concentration camps..... B also said the world cruise they had booked for this year was obviously cancelled with the travel ban but they booked Hawaii and Australia for next year and the world cruise for the year after, that is, assuming things will improve but I doubt it and once they take your freedom and rights away you never get them back, and they can take all their restrictions, lockdowns, mandates, masks, vaccines, etc, and shove it up their ass! Speaking of ass, yesterday and today when I wipe my ass bright red( fresh) blood shows up on the toilet paper,too, so here we go again, and it's not just when I shit,either, even when I don't, and despite travel restrictions my friend P( from grade 6) and her BFF( for 45 YRS!) just left for Mexico.

All the kids that are visiting over Christmas out-of-town and out-of-province are all here now but I haven't seen the 21 YR old yet as her and her BF came by train later last night and I was already in bed and they're still at the hotel now(as are the 24 YR old and her BF). They say it's because our house is too "dirty" but I bet the real reason is so they can do IT in private, as if we don't already assume they do it anyway, and yesterday when the 19 and 24 YR old and her BF came in I greeted them and asked how their trips were they just coldly and rudely walked right past me, ignoring me, not even acknowledging me, and it was just the 24 YR old's BF who was polite enough to say hi and then they all went right to my mother( who was laying in bed) and went over and talked and gossiped with her(and I overheard the 13 YR old Ohhh! Mother hates that!!)  and then they all left and spend most of their time hanging out at the hotel along with my hubby and the other kids, but I guess I can also choose to look at it as nice peace and quiet for me. My own kids have become strangers to me.

The 19 YR old also has these nice long hair extensions in and she's back to blonde again( no longer blue, pink, or purple hair) and it looks really nice and I couldn't even tell if it was extensions or if she'd just grown her hair long since I saw her last year and I remember when I was about to give birth to the 13 YR old( back when we still had $$$) I went to the salon and had extensions done in my hair and it took 5 hours and cost 2000$! I'm going to the nail salon today too and having my nails done( my anniversary gift from my hubby) as it makes me feel good and there's not much that makes me feel good about myself. The 19 YR old also (just like the 21 YR old) always wears obscenely short skirts too, with her ass-cheeks practically hanging out(and if she sits down or bends over it will) and it really disturbs me; I know they're adults now and can do what they like but I still can't help but be bothered because I still don't like it or approve as a mother of my girls looking like whores. I don't think many mothers would.

I also asked the Google Home device the meaning of a word( sago) and after it told me it asked if that was the definition I was looking for and I replied, I don't know....that's why I was asking; I don't know the meaning of the word! and I heard on the radio today that the Christmas Star  will be visiible this week as certain planets align, something that hasn't happened since the 1600's and it made me wonder if that's perhaps a sign that Jesus (the Messiah) will be returning esp. considering when He first arrived there was the Star Of Bethlehem announcing His arrival and with all the shit this year( pandemic/plague, increased and unusual natural disasters and weather patterns, beginning of the New World Order, etc..) are signs of the Last Days  and End Times prophecized in the Bible as indications of His imminent return so it makes me wonder and I sure hope so as we need all the help we can get as the world and humanity is in such dire straits esp. this year has been soooo horrible and we're now all on the verge of world-wide tyranny, oppression and Martial Law we really could use a hand here....

I wanted to give a shout-out(and a big hug!) to my friend L (from the old church, and her son C is also a friend of my oldest ever since they were teens) as I admire her sooooo much and she is the strongest, bravest and most couragest woman I know and has overcome so much, from living in foster care, being a very young single mom( since then she's happily married and now has 3 sons) and then being in a near-fatal( she actually did "die" and was brought back) car accident and was critically injured and had a severe TBI and spent months in the hospital, had to re-learn how to walk, talk, read, write, feed and dress herself all over again, and even now 3 years later has lost sense of smell and taste, has no memory before the crash, still struggles with speech, and other issues but she's still going on, still fighting, still a warrior and a survivor. 💓