Yesterday it got to an amazing 19 C and Buddy and I got to be outside again for a few hours and nothing feels better and sitting out in the sun smoking weed and listening to music made me feel just like how the colour light orange used to make me feel when I was 4 years old. The neighbours next-door were also sitting out in their backyard with company smoking weed so at least they can't yell at me for smoking weed and stinking up the air(that's my family's job, but at least I don't smoke it inside), and seeing our flowers starting to bloom is inspiring and gives me hope,too: they don't know what awaits them each new season yet every year they still eagerly bloom anyway. I had a baaad headache again too I thought maybe my BP was high but I took it and it was actually low 93/73 so it must have been something else and I suddenly have blurry double-vision as well, and I'm constipated too and trying to shit I emit these low bellowing groans that sound like a moose mating call, and yesterday someone had left the toilet lid down and I didn't notice and I sat on it and my pussy-lips stuck to it like a suction cup and I really hate it when that happens! I also heard some famous guy I've never heard of has designed and is selling sneakers dedicated to Satan, the devil himself. THERE ARE SIMPLY NO WORDS, and I think that I must be the only one that has sympathy and can relate to the Phantom of the Opera too and was "rooting" for him hoping he got the girl, feeling sorry for him being different, being isolated and longing for love. I heard as well Elon Musk donated 30 million $ recently as it must be so nice to have that kind of $$$ and the best thing about being rich is not having to cut coupons, wait for sales, buy No Name products or worry about how you're going to pay your bills.
Buddy is also so fat now(I prefer to say Pleasingly Plump) when he lays down on his side and all spreads out he looks like a walrus sunning itself on a rock, and he has this really soft skin on his underbelly too that feels like a soft wrinkly penis, and the 14 and 17 YR olds accuse me of loving him more than my own kids yet he loves me more than my own kids do so there's also that and we just share such a strong spiritual bond and connection like I've never felt with anyone else, and he's my best friend and my soul-mate. I just love my dog, what can I say? I love them differently; he's a dog and they're people. They try and get me to play that awful game too if I could only save ONE, the dog or my kids, which would it be? and I hate that because I could never choose(it's like asking which one of my kids would I save); I couldn't let anyone die, and I would save them all or die trying. My mother also said to me the other day that this Easter might end up being our Last Easter too and when I asked why she replied We both might be dead by next year and I was like Uh, OK..... and this is the first Easter I think that we're not having company and nothing to do with Coronavirus lockdowns and restrictions( we just ignore those and life still goes on) just logistics, and if the time comes where we'll need "vaccine passports"("Show me your papers!") to travel I'll just get a fake one somehow as I'm NOT going to be forced to get a vaccine I don't trust and am wary of(and that also may very well be The Mark of The Beast and I'm not taking any chances, just in case) but nothing is going to prevent my freedom to travel either and there are always "loopholes" and ways around things, and what next: will the unvaccinated folks be forced to wear yellow stars with Unvaccinated on them, and it's all so stupid,too; if the vaccines work as well as they say they do then why would the vaccinated sheeple majority have to fear about us minority unvaccinated ones? They'd have herd immunity. The 26 YR old says I don't care about other people because I ignore at the COVID restrictions and scoff at Climate Change but that's not true; I do care about other people and I have empathy and I pray for others and give to charity; I just don't take too kindly to fear-mongering and scare tactics or anything that limits freedom and "Climate Change" is just a fear tactic by the Enviro freaks; it's really extreme and unusual weather patterns in the Last Days as mentioned in the Bible, and merely fulfilling prophecy and the Corona lockdowns and mandates is eerily Orwellian 1984 Big Brother and reeks of Fascism like in Nazi Germany.
Don't allow hate in.
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