The Best Feeling In The World.

Feeling the warmth of the sun on your face is the best feeling in the world(and it's free!). There's nothing better and yesterday it was a nice 8 C and so Buddy and I were able to sit outside in the sun and fresh air and just relax and enjoy for 2 HRS until the sun left the back porch.....and later on a few hours after I even noticed I got a red sunburned face,too! HA! My first sunburn of the season!My left eye's even swollen,too! Today it's supposed to get to a glorious 14 C and tomorrow even up to 16 C but rain which sort of defeats the purpose though as I'm NOT sitting outside in the rain! I hate rain, so gloomy and yuck! it's just a big bunch of suck! It also feels sooooo goooood to be able to get outside again too after being cooped-up indoors all winter and it feels like I've been set free and my cage door has been opened and I've been allowed to finally go outside. Now I know what a housecat must feel like! I just love outside and once the weather is nicer( after tomorrow though it's supposed to drop down to a more seasonal cool of around 2C or 3C though so this mildness won't last; it's just a treat I'll enjoy while I can) I'm outside pretty much all day, as long as I can, as long as the sun is out I'm out; I practically live outside all summer! I run around barefoot too, I'm like this wild primal feral thing!

Yesterday the 17 YR old also said something that made me laugh harder than I think I've ever laughed in my entire life: she said that  no-talent "pussy" singers like Justin Bieber and Shawn Mendez will end up more popular and sell out more albums than Led Zeppelin! HA! You can't even compare the two! What a joke! I realized as well the 2 oldest kids of all of them and their original group of friends they first made as teens at our old church when we first moved here 18 YRS ago that they're the only  ones now out of the group that aren't married and don't have kids now; all the others have families, and I'm one of the oddities out of my friends I grew up with and went to highschool with,too; most of them are grandparents now,too(some many times over!) and I'm not although I'm also not in any hurry to either though so I'm not complaining. My friend V(from grade 6 and who I named my oldest girl after because she has a cool name) her oldest also turned 32 the other day and she bought him a new car!

I had a revelation or an inspiration or an epiphany or whatever you want to call it, as well that not only is my relationship with my mother strained since I had kids as she's overbearing,over-steps boundaries with my kids and my discipline, and interferring and over-rules and undermines me and her and my hubby always gang-up on me and now I have no authority over my own kids and they don't respect me, listen to me, obey me, etc. and just ignore me and do whatever they want, but also when I told her in my early 20's that I was moldested from age 4-20 by a relative the way she reacted wasn't  supportive in any way,either, and in fact, I felt she betrayed me and favoured her realationship with my abuser and his family more than she did me because despite what I had confided to her never once  did she ever confront them or even mention a thing to them about what I had revealed and said, no What did you DO  to my daughter? 

Nothing.

There was never any mention of it to them,ever. No discussion, nothing.I think she didn't want to "upset" them and cause a "rift." It was as if I never even told her, and when I did tell her, her first reaction was this: Why did you let  him? Why didn't you stop him?  I was 4 years old! How exactly was I going to stop  him? What did she expect me to be able to do? I felt like I've never really had her support, she's never had my "back", esp. when I need it the most. If I ever found out someone had molested my kids I would have reacted alot differently. let's just say I would have made a few calls to people and had them "taken care of". I also saw on the news in a long-term care home (AKA Old Folks' Home) despite over 90% of residents and staff being vaccinated for Corona virus there's still an outbreak there in BC so I guess their new "wonder" vaccine they've been pushing isn't as great as they would like us all to think and now with all the fear-mongering propaganda and indoctrination it's like everyone''s afraid of the Boogeyman.

The thing about Cancel Culture too is that no one is forgiving or gives anybody second chances anymore, and the Oprah interview Prince Harry and Meghan had revealed someone in the Royal Family is racist and were "concerned" how "dark" baby Archie's skin colour would be ( seriously? I mean, WTF?) and my guess is either Prince Charles or Prince William, or possibly maybe even both and I could only imagine the talk at the Palace after the interview,too:

Prince Charles: Bloody hell! Now everyone's going to think that we're a bunch of racists!

Prince William: Well, we sort of are, aren't we?

Meanwhile, everyone seems to "forget" that Prince Andrew is a pedophile and was a close associate of Epstein...it also looked like to me that Meghan was wearing a bathrobe and she just got out of the shower, and I wouldn't be surprised either if now they end up killed in a car accident for speaking out just like Princess Diana was.

How high can you fly with broken wings? - Aerosmith