Gerberas.

A couple of months ago I bought this Gerbera Daisy(pictured here) and at the time it was confined to this small little pot and only had 2 flowers and then nothing and it appeared to be dead and I was considering tossing it out but it had only been indoors as it wasn't warm enough or past the frost-date to plant it outside yet so it had just been sitting inside the kitchen window to get sun and so I decided to give it a second chance, a re-birth so to speak, outside once planting season came, the same time I planted my sunflowers 6 weeks ago and so I transplanted it into a bigger planter, the one seen here on the backyard porch,, and then it just bloomed; it thrived, it picked up and grew and grew and grew! Now it has 7 blooms on it and earlier it had produced 6 others before this crop, and here I thought before it was dead when really it just needed to be free; it needed to be outside, to have more space, to live somewhere else, somewhere it could grow, blossom and thrive and be what it was meant to be,and to not be confined indoors. I'm the same. I'm just like that flower. Stuck here, in this life, with a family that hates me, thinks I'm a burden and doesn't want me around, with this ugly body I hate and am trapped in and that limits me, in a place I hate just brings me down and I feel dead; I need to leave and go somewhere else where I can thrive, where I can feel alive again and where I can heal and grow and blossom. I need to be transplanted where I can grow tall and reach for the sunlight and feel free.

Buddy seems better today,too, thank God! He slept most of yesterday but then later in the day he was playing with his toy and romping in the grass sniffing up at the air and then he was really hungry too after not eating all day the day before and he really ate everything yesterday(which is a good sign he's feeling better) and I also saw a thick green booger from his nose too so maybe he just has a cold and that's it? Just in case though, in case we were saying goodbye, I spent most of yesterday just holding and cuddling him and letting him know how much I love him and how he's the best friend I've ever had and the best thing to ever happen to me. We also had a BBQ yesterday and so I wasn't the only one that smelled like smoke and the neighbours must have thought we were American too, having a BBQ in July 4th when really we wanted to for days but yesterday was the only day my hubby was off and it didn't rain, and nothing says free-spirit  than being 54 years old and sitting out in my backyard topless smoking a fat doobie not giving a f*ck.

I'm mad at the new neighbours,too as they cut down all of their trees along the side of their house next to the sidewalk, all 8 or so of them which means we don't have any shelter now when it rains when Buddy and I go for walks in the rain, plus that's also his fave. spot to go, and it was just so sad this morning too for his walk he was quizically looking around, noticing they were missing, as if thinking, Where did all the trees go? and it was sad; there was one lone bit of leaves left behind on the sidewalk and he peed and shit on that. Now there's all these big empty stumps left standing up too and it just looks so barren and ugly and it's sad too to think of all the poor birds and squirrels that used to live in those trees and are now homeless. 😢I'll also never see that beautiful Maple in the fall again,any more,either.

Hurry up and wait.