The Peony.

This is the one and only peony we got on our bush this year. We used to get dozens. My garden is just a total bust  this year and none of the sunflowers I planted survived either and even the 2 mature sunflower plants I planted something has eaten the petals off one of them( shown in the photo below) trying to get at the seeds, I suspect a chipmunk as I saw one in the garden and it ran when it saw me and Buddy saw it too and chased after it and normally I dissuade him from chasing them but this time I encouraged him and I hoped he'd tear it from limb to limb. Something also ate the 5 seedlings that did sprout, either the chipmunks, squirrels, birds, wild rabbits, or birds. I feel so defeated. I also noticed several leaves on the very tops of some maple trees are also already starting to change colour to yellow and orange so I guess they're not getting enough nutrients so maybe this season is just hard on the nature?  For the past 3 days my pain has been really bad as well; abdomenal the first day and stomach/liver area the past 2 days and sooo bad I couldn't nap and it kept waking me up at night and I curl up into a ball and break out into a sweat and am dizzy and light-headed from the pain and feel like I'm going to throw up. My back really hurts,too.

The 27 YR old also has a big jiu-jitsu tournament in Toronto on the weekend and he said marijuana edibles don't work on him just like they have no effect on me,either, except for that potent brownie in Jamaica though; I ate half and then later when I was in the diningroom at the resort having dinner it "hit" me and I felt like I was going to pass out and slip under the table so I went up to my room and slept for 4 hours! HA!  I also heard somewhere that Paul McCartney can't read music which I find hard to believe as how can he play guitar and write songs if he can't read music,  and just as I "called" it: they now have a Monkey Pox  vaccine clinic set up in Toronto now mainly targeting gay men they call the "high-risk" group but I suspect it's probably just the same old COVID "Clot-Shot" re-branded they're still trying to force onto everyone that they weren't able to get the first time around, and targeting "minority" groups like before they want to eliminate in their population control such as Indigenous people, the elderly, minorities, the poor, gays, etc. I also think it would be cool if I lived in Saudi Arabia and wore a burka all the time and then no one would have to look at this fat ugly thing!

When Buddy saw me taking a photo of my sunflowers he wanted a picture of himself,too, so here it is.He's such a ham! I'm pretty sure he is blind too like I suspected and twice the other day he walked right into a table head-first and I heard a loud thunp! My mother also wrote Happy 21rd birthday! on one of the kids' birthday cards instead of 21st. 21rd? really? and people that claim to hear voices, be telekenic, read people's minds, etc. society calls crazy as well but who are we to say that they don't? maybe they're just gifted, and my ideal guy would also have faith in God, like good music, smoke weed, have several dogs, be a hippie, a pacifist, be kind, have a big heart, be compassionate,and if I'm lucky as a bonus own a motorcycle,too! 😊

And even though it all went wrong I'll stand right here before the Lord of song With nothing, nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah.-Leonard Cohen.