Thought For The Day.

 

5 Things.

5 THINGS:

I ATE RECENTLY:

- fries & gravy chips

-Roast chicken chips

- pistachio ice cream

- Black Forest cake

- Falafel with chickpeas and grains bowl

HAPPENED OVER THE WEEKEND:

- The 28 YR old went to an Escape Room with friends

-The 15 YR old went to a corn maze

-My hubby and the boys played Dungeons & Dragons with their group

- I have this weird sinus headache I can't get rid of

-During my nap yesterday it felt like something suddenly slammed into my side and then immdeiately felt like I( me, my spirit, my essence, my being) was quickly being sucked out of my body on the other side for a few seconds and I wonder if that's what dying feels like?

I HAVE GOING ON NOW:

-I have a chocolate mint candle lit

-I took an awesome photo of the pretty sunrise this morning

- Looking forward to reading Prince Harry's new book once it's released....even if it does cost 40$

- So NOT looking forward to winter coming too soon and the cold weather.

- Turned the base heater on in the rec-room where my computer is because it got too cold now

I WOULD NEVER DO:

- have an abortion

- eat dog meat

- have sex with a stranger

- watch The Bachelor

- worship Satan

I WISH:

-I was pretty

-I was happy

-I was loved

- I was good enough

- I was valued

SONGS I RECENTLY UPLOADED:

- The Kids Are All Right by The Who

- The Games People Play by The Alan Parsons Project

-Don't Rock My Boat by Bob Marley & The Wailers

- Satisfy My Soul by Bob Marley & The Wailers

- Gangsta's Paradise by Coolio

I LIKE:

- hippos

-sunflowers

-music

-weed

-chocolate

I HATE:

- sports

-Country music

- Brussels Sprouts

- bitches and whores

- standing in line

I LEARNED RECENTLY:

-There's a cinnimin flavoured whiskey

- If horses have twins they almost always both die

- Jerry Lee Lewis and Elvis used to regularly rape 12 and 13 year old girls

- With my extremely dry eyes and mouth I might have this syndrome that has a Swedish-sounding name

- James Corden is actually an asshole

" the sadness will last forever " - Vincent Van Gogh

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Today's Musing.

 

The Pills.

First of all, take a look at this: this is amazing! Ferrero Rocher  only instead of the usual chocolate hazelnut rolled into little balls like meatballs and foil wrapped it's now also in a chocolate bar and it's sooooo delicious it was really hard to not eat it all at once! A couple of days ago my mother also noticed a bottle of her Tylenol was knocked down onto the floor next to her bed  with the lid off and 15 or so of them were scattered all over the floor and under her bed and at first I just thought she was being a klutz again as usual( she's always dropping pills on the floor I have to pick up so Buddy doesn't snuffle along and eat them ) but she said she didn't( unless, of course, she just forgot) so then I figured maybe the mice( that I have seen running along her bedside table!) knocked it over but then yesterday she also couldn't find any of her medications( that she keeps in a big Ziploc baggie and carries around with her in her walker) and was in a panic, thinking she maybe left them at the pharmacy the other day so she called them but it wasn't there and then thought maybe they got left behind in the car, but nope.....no pills.....so then we really started to worry, or more precisely, I did...

My first fear send a cold chill of fear down my spine" what if the 15 YR old took them like how the now 19 YR old and 25 YR old also did when they were teens in a suicide attempt? Mental illness does run in our family and once it happens the worry is always there lurking in the back of your mind what if it happens again, just like after the 25 YR old when he had leukemia when he was 7; up until then every time one of the kids got a fever I'd just assume they were coming down with a cold or something but after that defining moment I'd worry What if they have cancer now,too? Trauma just changes the way you think. Luckily she found them awhile later in her walker (the first place I told her they probably were and to look but no one ever listens to me!) and I told her she really should be more careful; like me; I always lock my medications away. She said she must have been having a "Senior Moment" and I told her it was more than just a moment! Luckily the 15 YR old knew nothing of my sheer panic and fear; it was all just inside me secretly; the secret hidden fear a mother often carries alone in her heart.

You can see from the photo here my hair has now grown in from a Buzz-Cut to a Pixie cut, a bit longer for the colder fall and winter season, and now in the mornings it's -2 C and this morning we even had frost and it doesn't warm up until later so now we can't sit outside until the afternoon when it warms up to 14 C, and I finally got my cholesteral pills at the pharmacy yesterday as well but I'd ran out last week as the doctor took forever to re-new the prescription even though I did call it in a week before I was to run out, and yesterday I still had that weird headache all across the front of my forehead again and strange painunder my chin and a feeling of electric bolts shooting down the back of my neck as well. My sinus is also acting-up again and I can't smell anything, not even the delicious Jerk Chicken the 28 YR old cooked yesterday and during the night my mother's scanner beeped waking her up telling her that her blood suagr was too low( 2.5) and they want it to be 6 and her usual is 10 or 11 and yesterday when I walked in the house she goes, I smell weed! and I replied, ...and I hear 'gay' music!( as she was listening to her Pussy-Pop radio station that plays Adele, Katy Perry, Justin Bieber, etc.) and Buddy is so smart too he understands 2 languages: English and German!Better than some people who only know one language!

She couldn't help thinkin' That there was a little more to life somewhere else.-Tom Petty

 

Who Adopted Who?

I got this from Facebook:

TODAY I ADOPTED A HUMAN~

It broke my heart to see him so alone and confused. And suddenly I managed to make his teary eyes meet mine. I don't like the smell of sad. I wanted so badly to jump on him. He spoke to me tenderly and I knew, I had to rescue him! That human needed me. So I barked with all my might, followed him for blocks and blocks.

I got closer, I could smell his hands. The human smiled for an instant and when he took me in his arms, I began to feel his cold heart warm. I got close to his cheeks and felt a tear roll down them. I looked deeply at him and his response was a bright smile. I jumped excitedly into his arms, I promised to behave myself, love him forever and never leave his side.

How lucky he was to pass through that block, down that street and I also feel lucky.

There were so many people walking by and no one was looking at me. All worried, all involved in his problems. I'm glad no one else chose me! Today I saved a life. Today I adopted a human.

 

Daily Truth.

 

Sunflower Globe.

Look what I found yesterday! A real sunflower in a snowglobe so I can enjoy it year-round! It was more expensive than I'd like (25$) but it was special and just soooo perfect for me so I got it anyway. Sometimes you just have to treat yourself and we all pay for the important things in life. I also got the almond/cherry Jergens body lotion I remember as a child so it brought back happy memories and I was even able to get the Advent calendars,too! I also went in the closet to get my lilac candle out I had saved from before.....and it was gone and I know I haven't used it yet as I was saving it for after my pumpkin spice and apple cinnimin one so either someone took it or throw it out( something one of the kids has done before with my stuff) just to piss me off. My friend P( from grade 6) is also back in Cuba again even though she just got back a couple of weeks ago and she goes so often I wonder why doesn't she just move there and wonder too if maybe she's even a spy or something? It's sad realizing as well that hugging ,cuddling,and snuggling Buddy is the only love and physical affection and physical contact that I have in my life. I think it's sad too how Kanye West is now being hated, vilified, and "cancelled" when he's struggling with mental illness when what he really needs most right now is love, understanding, support, compassion,amd help, and as for me, I've always preferred to be alone,too, by myself; other people annoy me and I enjoy the solitude and peace.

Yesterday I also watched as the cement truck poured out cement to fix in front of the dance studio across the street and to finish off the sidewalk at the corners and it looks like shit plopping out of a cow or hippo's ass, and something weird,too: for a few minutes I couldn't understand what the workmen were saying; it sounded like they were speaking in a foreign language I couldn't understand but then awhile later I realized it was English but for a few minutes it sounded foreign and I couldn't understand it! I also had this weird headache all day too all across the front of my forehead that I couldn't get rid of so maybe I'm going to have a stroke or I have a brain tumour or something? The 28 YR old's boss also said a mosque called about having their chandeliers cleaned and then asked an odd question: if they have Jewish clients and when they said most of them were they hung up! WTF? That's just so mean, and Islam and Judaism actually have more in common with eachother( prayer times, ritual cleansing, no pork, only worship God, no Trinity or divinity of Jesus, dietary laws, etc) than they do with Christianity, and Hindus have Diwali Festival of Lights and Jews have Hanukkah Festival of Light so when you really think about it most religions have more in common with eachother than you realize.

Hearts rolling in taken back on the tide We're balanced together ocean upon the sky.-Heart

 

Saturday Stuff.

I'm a 1967 Classic model.

I'm always THAT PERSON who ends up sitting in front of the Child From Hell.

It's like a minefield!

That's homeschooling!

How about "cunt?"

I did that once; contacted my travel agent on a Friday and the next Tuesday I was in Cuba!

Won't you fly high, free bird, yeah.-Lynyrd Skynyrd