Catch Of The Day!

Look what we caught yesterday on the kitchen table! Yummy!! ( ha, ha) This morning we got 2 of them! That's the thing with living out in the country so close to nature; we get mice in the house,and sometimes even the odd squirrel and chipmunk,too, and one time we even got this huge rat(that really freaked out the kids!) that was almost the size of Buddy(it must have ran inside the house from outside when the door was open) and my hubby caught it in the basement with this big trap) and we have raccoons,too, in the backyard usually around the pool or at the front veranda in the garbage but so far never in the house, and Babushka's nephew(who lives more up North) often even sees bears in his yard! We're also having Indian Summer for this next week where it's nice and sunny and mild, near 20 C so likely the last of our sitting outside days and the 28 YR old says the chandeliers he cleans for his jobs are "better than ours"(yeah,so are the houses) and are worth 500K, hell, they're worth more than our house, and yesterday the 15 YR old got his hair cut as well. I also read old friend's T and A's Facebook posts they had de-friended me from but I hacked and so I'm still able to keep up with them without them knowing and it gives me a feeling of "satisfaction" as well, sort of like I "won" or I "beat" them or "outsmarted" them, as they tried to get rid of me but I was still able to follow them,anyway despite it, and I'm also even able to follow the kids too on FB pages they claim don't even exist. It also hurts that everyone I've ever loved or cared about has either betrayed or abandoned me except for Buddy but even he's going to die eventually and I'll end up losing him,too.

There's also a municipal election on Monday) mayor, city councillors) I never bother with; I just care about the federal ones for PM and only vote for that but I have been following the Toronto one and I like Gil Penalosa and I'm rooting for him for mayor as I like his ideas and he has expertise in urban planning. I love his cool Colombian accent too and I could just listen to him talk all day just to hear his accent, and I have nothing against John Tory and I think he's done a good job but he still is one of the 1% though.My mother also said she wants to take the 15 YR old ( her fave.) on a cruise even though she hobbles around with her walker and can hardly even get around so it'll be interesting to see how that's going to work, and I figured it would have been for the best for everyone if I had just died in the fire 26 YRS ago and then it would have spared everyone alot of  suffering (and trauma for me,too!)since the kids think I'm such a horrible mother that damaged them, and someone often suicidal like me also does lots of research,too, like figuring out how much anti-freeze you need to consume to be lethal; afterall, one must take just the right amount to do the job but you don't want to have to take more than necessary(yuck!) or not enough, and I never went to Scouts to learn how to tie knots either so I have no idea how to tie a noose and we don't have a barn rafter to hang it from and with my fat ass I can't hang myself from the ceiling fan or else the whole thing would just come crashing down....along with the whole ceiling! Everything is much more complicated when you're stupid, even trying to kill yourself. maybe that's why I haven't succeeded so far(as well as nothing ever going right for me) and keep screwing-up? I can't even do that right!

Step out of line, the men come and take you away.-Buffalo Springfield