Mittwoch.

My back is really bad today, even worse(my cough's worse,too, which also hurts my back even more), and even though I've had a bad back for years I never knew back pain could possibly ever get this bad! it brings tears to my eyes and I literally see stars and everything I do (bend down to do laundry, garbage, pick up Buddy,etc.) aggravates it even more and I'm dizzy, naueated and break out into a sweat with the pain and someone suggested that with such excruciating lower back pain that it could be a kidney stone even though my bad kidney is on the other side! We're also supposed to get an official shitload of snow tomorrow; a big storm 20cm or so(a friend in the UK said London got 7cm and it shut down the entire city but for us 7 cm is nothing) so hopefully it'll stay and we'll have a White Christmas, and an ad said that the play Joseph And The Amazing Technicolor Dream Coat is having it's North American premiere too but that's bullshit as I remember seeing it live decades ago, and my hubby's going to buy the new TV on the Boxing Day sale and the pharmacy did my mother's pills in these plastic "capsules" all sorted and divided out for 3 times a day in a sort of a little "book" that looks like an Advent calendar and of the 4 countries left in the World Cup final ( France, Croatia, Morocco, and Argentina) I've only not been to Argentina.USA also whines how Iran and North Korea helps arm Russia in their war against Ukraine yet they send Ukraine arms, too, so what's the differerence? They're doing the same thing!

Music has also always been such an integral part of my life too I can't fall asleep unless I'm listening to it, and they said the other day that the average cost of a house in this shithole is 750K, not incl. Toronto or Vancouver where it's over a million$ and a guy won the 55 million$ lottery jackpot too and he said, Now I can finally afford to buy a house in Toronto! The 28 YR old was nice too and surprised me last night by buying me some more weed from his boss because he knew I was running out( wasn't that sweet? The gift that keeps on giving!) and this has been yet another bad year,too: 3 friends I really cared about and valued de-friended me and blocked me on Facebook due to my being anti-vaxx, incl. 2 I have known for over 30 years which really hurts, and then to find out the 26 YR old had a sex-change ( which itself doesn't bother me; it just bothers me if the kids are into anything occult or slutty) and no one told me but kept it secret from me, making me feel even more isolated and excluded from this family, and some of the kids sent for that DNA ancestry test as well but they left out part of our family's history, such as the Dutch and Italian, etc.and I know it's there as my mother told me and based on some of the names, and I even remember seeing an old photo of her and one of her Italian cousins and he was a good looking guy and very Italian-looking( he looked like Dean Martin) it was obvious. I don't really trust them anyway and think they just randomly send off any results, sort of like horoscopes, and now police even use the DNA to solve crimes as well and my concern( and why I'd never do it) is what if the gov't gets a hold of the DNA and what would they possibly use it for some nefarious purpose? There's NO WAY I'm submitting mine! You never know where it might end up!

LOVE HURTS ONE WAY OR THE OTHER-Nuyorican