Yesterday.

Here's the funny card my hubby gave me yesterday for our anniversary and growing up I had always thought no one would ever marry me being so ugly and weird(I even thought I'd have to end up having my kids by artificial insemination!) but I just found someone that was also ugly and weird too and now here we are 34 years later still ugly and weird and now also old and fat,too! We went out to eat and instead of a main course I ordered 2 aqppetizers; antojitos and a spinach/cheese dip with pita wedges. I'm not much of a meat eater( the odd bit of chicken here and there, that's it) and I saw somewhere that kidney failure can turn you off meat so I wonder if that has anything to do with it? I shouldn't have had the antojitos though as today I keep shitting my ass off but I'm stupid and I never learn and keep doing this to myself but I like jalapenos! he had a steak( he's allowed to "cheat" on his diet on special occasions) and to take it home they gave me this little square box(like for Chinese take out) so how was I expected to put the dip in....so I just put the dish in with it! I also even saved a tiny bit of the steak to bring home to Buddy too because I know he'd be waiting and expecting a little something when I got back( which he was) and because I love him. We also stopped off at the mall later but I only went to a few stores as I just can't do the Mall Crawl anymore; I just get too tired out and out of breath and I bought a coconut bubble tea with the tapioca beads that look like fish eyes. I figured we might stop off too so I purposely didn't bring my credit card so that way I wouldn't be tempted to spend any $$$..

Here is my left-overs which I had for my snack last night and the heated seat in the car also helped my sore back and driving along the long country roads  in the snow also reminded me of visiting my cousins  out in the country as a kid over Christmas bringing back happy childhood memories, and my hubby also got called into work last-minute as well but once he explained it was our anniversary and we had plans for dinner someone else covered for him and all his co-workers are also all married and understand how their  wives would react if they were told they had to work on their anniversary and the boss would also have to deal with me(and they have no idea what they're dealing with, ha, ha!) and as much as my hubby likes his job he says he's considering retiring next year at age 60 and maybe even retiring to the Canary Islands as the weather is good and I'd be up for that( and certainly glad to get out of this shithole!) and I even have a friend who lives there,too, originally from Belgium. Weird as well( or at least I think so,anyway): my mother bought Christmas gifts for the 23 and 26 YR's BF's (who aren't even members of our family) but nothing for the 28 YR old...or for anyone else, saying If I got something for him I'd have to for everyone...(I told her she doesn't have to spend alot of $$$$ on gifts though).so she gets gifts for other people but not her own family? That's just ....weird... I get gifts for all my family except for the 26 YR old because he always gives gifts to everyone except me, purposely excluding me and I don't need that shit and am just returning the "favour" and treat people the same way they treat me.

Søren Kierkegaard: "The tragedy of life is that it has to be lived forwards, but it can only be understood backwards."