Recent Happenings.

After all that snow today it's going up to a balmy(for March) 6 C and it's melting now and yesterday Buddy did a shit in the house, not wanting to deal with all that snow and it was sunny as well so with the bright sun reflecting off the white snow it was so bright it was blinding! This morning the 28 YR old also yelled at me that I woke him up being so loud grunting doing a shit in the bathroom next to his room and he was imitating me and mocking me copying the sounds, even though I couldn't help it; I was constiptaed and with my bad colon I'm either constipated or have diarrhrea and he said not to push so hard( I have to when I'm constipated; the only way it'll come out!) or I'll get hemmoroids and I told him I already have them and he said that's why. I feel so embarrassed but it's just a body function and he's not a very nice person(none of them are) to make fun of me for it and shame me yet I still need  someone to connect with, and I wonder as well if this time they did find something on my abdomenal ultrasound as well as last time I had results in just 2 days but this time on Tuesday it'll be a week and I still haven't heard so maybe something showed up and they have to write up a more detailed report and it takes longer? Also, if the doctor wants me to come in to  see him for an app't to discuss it(as opposed to over the phone like last time) that would also be an indication, just like how they don't tell you over the phone that you have cancer..

My mother's glucose has also been really low ( 2.5 and 4 is dangerous level so anything lower is even worse) normal is 7-8 and sometimes really high as well like 16, and yet she's still too lazy to get up out of bed and get something to eat even though food is medicine and she needs it as fuel to work with the insulin to regulate her glucose levels; it's like she's just laying in bed waiting to die, and I'm getting really tired of this, she doesn't even make any effort to even try and get better, and the best thing about me being the first one up this morning was I got the hot water for my bath,too, and the other day as I was watching the news my hubby scoffed he was going upstairs to watch something he liked and it was better for me,too, as he wasn't around to bug me about the redneck sports that I mute.There's also this radio contest where you call in to win tickets to a baseball game in NYC and to me that's a booby prize and not even worth calling in for and I'd rather get tickets to a concert and I also got an e-mail about a Starbucks contest to win free coffee and I don't even drink coffee!

I heard as well that Nordstrom  is closing all it's stores here and I guess it's just too high-end for this shithole and stores like Zellers  and Wal-Mart are better suited for the beer-swilling, hockey-loving rednecks here, and my theory for what makes people become trans is it seems many of them were either molested as kids or raped as adults; that's not to say that everyone who was molested or raped ends up trans( or gay) but it seems a high number of them  were, or maybe, just maybe, they were the other gender in another life and they want to re-live that past life? That seems possible,too. I think that could be the case with the 26 YR old as every since he was little he was always like a boy and never liked girls' stuff like dresses or dolls, etc.Buddy also thought I was holding out on him and hiding food as he smelled eucalyptus when really it was just the salve I put on my sore back that hurt from shovelling snow.

Here I go again on my own Goin' down the only road I've ever known. Like a drifter I was born to walk alone.-Whitesnake