Cleaning Is Dangerous!

Yesterday the 28 YR old decided to clean out his closet and was really going at it and I quipped What, have you been snorting coke or something, to get all this energy?  and he said if he was he would have finished an hour ago and he threw out everything, incl. the wicker Moses  basket all the kids first used as newborns and the newborn baby carseat which made me sad as it meant the end of an era and reminded me of the best time with the kids and happier days when they were sweet little babies and he was throwing bags and stuff down the stairs and off the balcony into the driveway( I almost got hit with one) and stuff was falling on the car in the driveway and one bag even landed on a bush at the front and he left a big mess he never finished as part-way he had trouble breathing and he was wheezing and his chest hurt and he thought he was having an asthma attack( even though he doesn't have asthma) so he went to the ER. He just told me he was "going out" but my hubby told me and I was sick with worry as some of the kids do have breathing issues, likely inherited from me as I was diagnosed with Alpha1 anti-trypsin deficiency and it always "gets" me too how the kids' breathing issues are accepted no problem but when it comes to mine it's denied and they all tell me that I'm just fat and lazy and my hubby dismisses as a "joke" but it's NOT "funny"; it's mean,invalidates me, and it hurts my feelings.

So off he went and he was there for 4 hours or so and he got a chest X-ray and he must have inhaled dust, or particles or maybe even mold or fungus or God-knows-what from the cleaning because he had fluid in his lungs he had to have drained! Holy shit! I've heard chest tubes are supposed to be quite painful,too, but then again, not being able to breathe is scary as f*ck as well and I suppose the relief of being able to breathe again would "outweigh" the pain.In any case, I guesss he's better now because he went to work this morning but I'll find out more later today once he gets back but that's scary and cleaning is dangerous to your health! He also left a mess on the stairs and I fell down them coming down this morning and I was carrying Buddy too so instead of instinctively putting my arms out to protect myself to brace my fall I kept holding on tight to him not wanting to drop him or land on him so instead I slid down and landed on my back with my right leg bent underneath me and landed on it with him safely on top of my chest so he wasn't hurt but I'm all banged-up and sore and my  back, arms, and leg hurts and I don't know yet if it's broken or not but not likely since I can still walk but it feels all numb and like pinched nerves and I ache and hurt all over.

Being left behind hurts, certainly by your loved ones. And certainly when you can’t understand why.-Thomas Cayne