Keeping Up.

Not too much going on to report other than we're getting an official shitload of rain this weekend; they even gave us a rain advisory and flood warning , 75 mm or more so there goes our basement again and kitchen ceiling and it's also supposed to rain for the next few days right up to Thursday so no more outside days for me for awhile but it'll give my sunburned face a few days to heal. My pain( abdomenal, stomach, and back) also just keeps on continuing to get worse day by day so I'm thinking it must be some sort of cancer somewhere and I just hope (if I make it that long!) when I get the CT scan in June that it shows something  and this morning I smelled a really rank fart and I asked my mother and Buddy(who were both in the room with me) OK, which one of you farted? and she said Not me! and I looked over at him and he had a guilty look on his face so it was him. He'll probably also shit in the house today because he "doesn't do" rain.Yesterday I also heard a neighbour's big dog bark and a voice yelling loudly from all the way down the street, Shut up!!

I also can't believe that Carol Burnett is 90! She doesn't look it (even though I'm sure like most Hollywood celebs she's had face-lifts) and unlike my mother, doesn't even have a walker or anything,either, and I can still remember watching her comedy show in the 70's as a kid and I've always really liked her, and I can remember too in the US Virgin Islands seeing her vacation home, and I can still even remember the day I got my first period at 13 1/2 as well; the night before I was waiting for a streetcar coming back home from the O'Keefe Centre after watching the Beatlemania live performance in the summer of 1980 and I was hit with the worst "stomachache" ever and I grabbed my stomach and slid down the wall with my back to the wall and sat down crouching down hugging my knees and crying the pain was so bad( remember, I was just 13 and up to this point it was the worst pain I'd ever had) and wondered what it was.....and then the next day saw blood on my pants and I knew; so that's what period cramps felt like! It was just the beginning of  life-long really bad cramps every month but I was relieved to get it actually; the last of all my friends(they got theirs when they were 12) and I thought there was something wrong with me; that maybe I didn't even have a uterus or something and at the time I thought I wanted kids later, but I was just really skinny, underweight and under-developed and still looked like a little kid so puberty was later for me.

When I posted on my Facebook the exciting news the 27 YR old's engaged and my friend C( from the YMCA in Ottawa) said I "must be excited, with soon-to-be-grandchildren" and I told her no, as it's the trans kid so kids aren't too likely with that one and she said "Oh, no!" but I don't mind as I'm not really too "eager" for grandchildren,anyway and I do wonder though with now both identifying as male which one is the groom and if they're both going to wear suits? I also heard standing tickets to a redneck Leafs game (hockey)cost over 500$ which is crazy and they couldn't even pay me that much to watch that crap and I wouldn't even pay that much to see a concert of someone I really like,either, as that's just waaaay tooo much $$$ and waaay too expensive and just ridiculous!

“No great mind has ever existed without a touch of madness.” ~ Aristotle