New Dryer!

We finally got our new dryer yesterday(shown here) and I like it! The only thing is it doesn't have a light inside so it's really dark in there and I think it's also smaller inside as it looks more crowded with laundry but it's simple like I wanted with just the basic things and not all thses fancy bells and whistles and complicated settings as not only do they cost extra they're too complicated for me and I'll never use them,anyway. You know you're old too when you get excited over a new appliance! At first I was starting to freak out as a truck stopped at the house at the corner for a delivery and I thought they had the wrong house and I almost ran out shouting, Hey you! Hey mister! You got the wrong house! It's over here! but then I saw them unload a fridge, not a dryer, and it was a glorious 22 C yesterday and I sat out in the sun for 3 hours( until I got a headache) and I purposely laid out for sun and got a burn( see the photo below) and Toronto even got up to 27 C and the average this time of year is around 13 C but I'll take it!! My friend P( from grade 6) who just returned from a cruise now just left for Cuba again and she must spend 6K a month (maybe more!) on travel! My friend O( from grade 10 who now has a PhD in psychology) also got a life-long ban from Twitter just for referring to someone as "he/she" as it "violated their rules". It's so stupid though the things that get you banned. It's like Nazi Germany the censorship.

We also tried to call a plumber for our neverending dripping tub but the 2 we had before are now both out of business so we had to find another one and left a message 2 days ago but he still never called back( doesn't it figure? We don't have much  luck with anything,do we?) and my pain's still so bad and it also feels like something's stuck under my lower right rib and I was being stabbed on the right side by a white-hot poker  and the pain shoots up to my shoulder blade and yesterday I was sweaty and I couldn't tell if it was from the pain or just from sitting out in the sun, and my allergies are back now as well and that's the one thing I don't like about spring; that, and the bugs, esp. flies, wasps, and mosquitoes, and my mother told my hubby to weigh the cards at the post office for the almost 27 YR old's birthday and I said he'll just "love" doing another errand for us and she sniffed, She's his daughter,too!  and I corrected her, You mean son! and she didn't say anything but just grumbled, so I guess she's NOT taking the sex-change as well as I thought.

 My mother also said she's tired of me always complaining and I said Where do you think I got it from? I learned it from the Master! and she denied it and I just laughed but at least I admit my faults and short-comings(anger, impatience, gluttony, laziness,negativity, pessimism,apathy,etc.), unlike her; she thinks she's "perfect" and acts like a martyr, and nothings ever her fault; always someone else's, usually mine, and after being betrayed, used, or abandoned by everyone I've ever loved or trusted, abused, bullied, rejected, always disappointed, constant bad luck, trauma, beaten-down by life, never being good enough no matter how hard I try, never catching a break, etc. I just gave up and if that made me apathetic, negative, pessimistic, impatient, a complainer, etc. then so be it.

 I just don't care anymore. I'm just done.

Ironically, if I eventually am successful at a suicide attempt it will be the one time that I've ever succeeded at anything.