Little BitsOf Life.

Not too much going on here but it's been 23 C for the past few days but dropping down to 14 C next week and the 16 YR old is sick now, probably picked up some virus around all those tourists in Niagara Falls and my baby palm tree is dying too; I've had it now for 2-3 years and it was fine and now just awhile after Iput it back outside the green is fading off the leaves and it's turning brown and it's officially warm now too as I'm back to wearing shorts and T-shirts as my "crappy clothes" around the house and my shorts are so loose and keep falling down so I must have lost weight since last summer  and poor Buddy yesterday could only walk so far from the kitchen to the livingroom and then stopped and sat down and barked for me to come and get him and pick him up and carry him the rest of the way, poor old boy, as he couldn't walk any more, and the 28 YR old says I should "put him down" but I won't kill my best friend; God will take him when it's his time, and when he dies I'll never be able to embrace life again as he is my life, and I had a nightmare last night too he'd wandered off somewhere to die alone and it broke my heart double as I wanted him to at least die in my arms so he won't be alone and he'll know how much I love him.

Today is also the anniversary of Bob Marley's death so May is a bad luck month for him,too, just like it is for us, and my mother left her left-overs from the restaurant out on the table all night too so now it's all rotten having chicken and cream in it, and yesterday was McHappy Day at McDonald's where proceeds go to charity and normally we would except the charity was the Children's Foundation which is actually Child Welfare who doesn't "help" families but destroys them and also Ronald McDonald House which used to be good but then discriminated against unvaccinated children and refused to accept  them as clients, which is discrimination and NOT very "charitable" so NOT charities that we want to support, and I downloaded a Santana and Krokus song onto my iPod as well and I saw a sad photo of Dolph Lundgren who has cancer now and is old and sick looking and he used to be so handsome and I think it's much worse and harder to have once had good looks and to have lost  them than to have never had them at all, so maybe I am "better" off always having been ugly, and now with men trying to be women and women trying to be men and not being able to tell the difference half the time the whole world is upside-down and downside-up and inside out and backwards and society has lost God and the sense of right and wrong and it's all just so confusing and messed-up  and my head is spinning and I just want to get off!

Maybe I should cry for help Maybe I should kill myself.-AWOLNATION