Devoid.

I have been seriously devoid of flowers for the past few months, being winter, but yesterday I had to go to the store to look for a special mini lightbulb( I never did find) and they had flowers there, and even more rare( not only for the winter but in general) they had purple roses so I picked them up! It feels so nice to have some flowers back in the house again and I really missed them! I also remember having a "revelation" before that just before I die I'll see purple roses, so...... I really love them though! My hubby hates  my flowers and plants though and yesterday referred to my 4 ferns in the rec-room as my "stupid plants" and groused that they're "always in the way" and complained that they were "blocking the heating vents" by being in front of the window, but where else would I put plants? They have to be in front of the window to get sunlight! He hates everything of mine though and about me and anything of mine is a burden, annoying,and an inconvenience to him. I replied by telling him that I  think his superheros, Marvel, Spider-Man, etc. are stupid,too!! At least my plants aren't jeuvenile!!

I just loooove my dreads! They also keep my head nice and warm yesterday when I went out to the store( and no one was staring at them so no one can tell it's a wig) and it was snug and toasty warm like a hat and it was soooo cold out only my head( from the dreads) and my feet ( with the Cougar boots) were warm and everything else was freezing cold! The only thing is they pile so high up on my head they kept banging on the 'ceiling" of our small car! I was really hot and over-heated in the store though and had to take my parka off. I never said anything to my mother about it; I'm just going to wear it later today when I visit her and see if she notices...The other day was also my friend J ( from grade 8)'s birthday and she posted a recent photo on Facebook  and she used to have curly red hair and I was suprised it's now all white! She's also gained lots of weight( but she was never thin and was always "chunky")like me, and just like the rest of us she's aged. It's sad now to realize how old we've all gotten! I still "see" her as I remember her in Jr. High.

For the past few days I've also had a really sore lower back, and my hubby said the electric bill was 100 $ more than usual because I've had to turn on the electric heat and space heaters to warm up the house so now he's banned us from using it so we'll just have to freeze I guess, and my mother also got a letter from her doctor saying she's closing up her practice in town and leaving(so it worked out she's in the LTC home now where they have a doctor come in once a week) even though she's only been here like a year or so, so I wonder if she got fed-up living here in Bumble-F*ck  or if she maybe got disiciplined for something or maybe even lost her license? I also noticed Dr.K ( who was both my mother's and my doctor before he retired) still has his name listed on the clinic even some 1- 2 years or so after he "retired" so it makes me wonder if he really actually did retire...or if he just told us  that because he just didn't want us as patients anymore? Part of me wants to call his office and see how they answer the phone, to see if he's still really there or not...

Then we do our best to survive it till we can get away.-Moonwynd