Bob Marley Day.

Today is Bob Marley Day because it is also his birthday; he was born on this day in 1945.

Happy Birthday Bob 'mon!

I was also so sweaty last night again I had to sleep with my shirt off. I hate menopause and this getting old shit is a really annoying pain-in-the ass.It really sucks! I also notice that my left side is much fatter and more puffy, swollen, and edemic than on my right side; my fingers, hand, arm, leg,and ankle, and it's quite noticeble,too, and even my left nostril has been congested and plugged for months as well(but the right side is clear so it's not a cold or they'd both be blocked)and my guess is that there must be some sort of blockage in either my lymphatic or circulatory system on the left side(maybe a clot or something?), or else I have heart failure or I had a stroke that only affected the one side. My knees and ankles also always crack too and it sounds like an old rocking chair on a creaky old wooden floor! I wish I could still do cartwheels and back handsprings too like I did when I was young but the mind is willing but the body says forget it old lady.Do it and die I could try but I'd probably end up either paralyzed or dead.

My hubby also says at the beginning of each month we always pay my mother's LTC home rent first and then the other bills with whatever we have left over because we don't want them to send her back home,ha,ha, and my hubby says we'll probably never be able to sell the house, anyway( because the kids wrecked it) and last night I had another nightmare again I couldn't find Buddy and people told me he was dead and I often have nightmares about that, likely because I fear losing him because he's the one I love most and spend the most time with; he's my entire life, my reason to live and to keep holding on; he's my everything and I have so much to lose and fear losing the most, and I also enjoy the simple things in life the most,too; looking up at the stars, sunsets, palm trees swaying in the breeze, flowers, snow glistening in the moonlight, the sound of waves crashing against the shore at the beach, etc. Buddy's smart,too,and when he wanted more food he stood in front of his empty dish and looked up at me and then kept banging his empty dish up and down with his snoot telling me he wanted a re-fill,and poor King Charles has cancer and just when he finally got his turn to be King now he doesn't have much time to enjoy it(life can be a real kick in the ass), and it looks like he likely won't live to ripe old age like his parents did and Prince William will be a fairly young King in the not-so-far future.

I also don't give a rat's ass

a flying f*ck

or a shit

about the Superbowl.

Oh, it hurts to live today.-Theory Of A Deadman