Getting Old Sucks!

I was talking to the 29 YR old's ex-GF's mother yesterday( we're still friends) who is a bit older than me and she was just in the hospital for a few days as she had to had her appendix out! It was on the verge of rupture and she lives in California but luckily she's rich( the kind of rich where you have a housekeeper and statues and waterfountains by the pool rich) and can afford it but so many people in USA just die because they can't afford medical treatment and here in this shithole they die waiting for it! She also has to have another ablation for her heart soon and her hubby recently also had cataract surgery and has liver and kidney stones and in a recent photo I saw of him he looks thin and sick and like he's lost alot of weight. Getting old and broken and falling apart really sucks!  The 29 YR old's ex-GF is also getting married in August As for me, I still have the stomach, abdomenal and back pain, and feel queasy at times,too, and yesterday most of the day I always felt so cold,too, and was shivering and had chills for most of the day. Maybe my diverticulitis is turning into sepsis or something and my BP is dropping really low?

The 29 YR old also said that it's the same technique used singing opera as heavy metal which surprised me since they're so different musically(but I like both; the only so-called music I hate is redneck country and pussy music-think Taylor Swift, Justin Bieber, etc.) and he'd asked before too if it was a "waste of $$" taking his singing/voice lessons and I told him not if he enjoys it ( which he does, very much in fact) and it's never a "waste" of $$ if you enjoy something, and I saw someone in Poland online say they "saw a Black person" and "it was such a disgusting, ugly, vile creature" and I thought that was just awful, and I just can't *believe* some people, and there's just soooo much hate, racism, and bigotry against Blacks, Jews, Muslims, and immigrants it hurts my heart, and I'm convinced if there wasn't so much hate, racism and overall horrible-ness in people there wouldn't be any wars,either.

Humanity sucks.

I really hope Armageddon does come on the 23rd.

There may be some karma in all this, or maybe not, but in the end, we’ll know we did the best we could for those who needed us.-Gr8fulNurse