In-Between.

My jacket did actually end up coming yesterday afterall( shown here) and I'm BOTH disappointed and not; so it's in-between. It fits perfectly since I measured and had it custom-made and it looks ok, but I'm disappointed as it's NOT real leather and sheepskin like it said and advertised it was and like I was lead to believe and expect and it's much thinner material and you can tell it's sort of "cheap" and just made of "pleather" and fake sheepskin lining and certainly NOT worth the close to the 200$ I paid for it. In short, I am disappointed it's cheap-looking but at least it fits and I can still wear it but NOT as disappointed as I could have been, so it's a bit of both. Last night I was also sooo hot and sweaty( even though it was only 12 C overnight) sweat was just pouring off me and I had to sleep in just my underwear! I swear, I hate the "Hot Flashes" of menopause, plus at 2 am Buddy also woke me up thumping and banging thrashing around and I don't know if he had a seizure or what but I picked him up and held him and he eventually settled down and went back to sleep. Earlier I had also stepped in a squishy shit with my socks in the dark hallway I couldn't see and I'm just getting soooo fed-up with this and then I felt badly later on during the night when he was struggling.

My left eye is also really swollen and itchy I wonder if I might have Pink-Eye and likely picked it up from my mother when I visited her as she gets it frequently and it's really contagious,  and it really "gets" me as well how everyone is so sad and grieving that One Direction guy died and yet hundreds of Palestinians and Lebanese are dying every day, being slaughtered by Israel and no one seems to care,  and Sinwar wasn't a "terrorist",either, but a resistance fighter fighting againt Israel's occupation and genocide in Gaza and invasion of Lebanon.Comparable to the Resistance in WWII against the Nazi occupation.

Yesterday as I was out on the back porch smoking mi ganja I heard a kid and their dad walking by on the other side of the fence and the kid goes, I know what that smell is!.....it's a skunk!! and I just laughed so hard, skunkweed more like it, ha,ha, and I also felt something in my abdomen pulsing and throbbing like a heartbeat I wonder might be an abdomenal aortic aneurysm or something?

The Ontario Legislature also just went back in session after a long 19 week (that's almost 5 months!!) summer break and today f*ckwit Trudeau in Parliament is also going to be faced by his OWN party who wants him ousted and many of his own Liberal MPs have even signed a petition to get him to resign(but we all know he's too much of a narcissist to do so) and others have even resigned themselves in protest, and there's this rapper named Jelly-Roll as well and he's this really big guy with tattoos all over him and he says that people are really mean to eachother on Twitter too and he's right.

Most people just suck.

As mothers, we can only do our best and no more.-Philipa Senior