Today's Thought.

 

The Purse.

I finally got a photo of the 30 YR old's new purse he calls a man bag so you can see it for yourself and decide if you think it's a purse or a satchel. He also has to work today and my hubby and the youngest are in Toronto leaving Beja-Boo and I home alone, a nice quiet break for me so I think I'll also order-in food as a treat and just enjoy the nice peace, but it's raining and windy so we can't go outside. Here's my poem for rain:

Rain rain

go away

come again

during the night

and f*ck you.

Last night the youngest also went to that dinky little fair in town with his friend( the 30 YR old and his GF are going tomorrow) and an all-day ride pass costs 40$ too I think is a rip-off for just 6 rides(you'll be done in 10 minutes!) when you can go to the CNE and get over a 100 rides for costing not much more.

My suntan's also coming along well and all this week it's supposed to be sunny and hot, and Wednesday even up to 27C with a humidex into the mid 30's, and the wildfires are really bad in Manitoba and Saskatchewan as well they evacuated 21K people and the smoke is even expected to waft all the way over here and affect our air quality and turn the clouds/sky orange-y, and there's just one day left in May and so far so good; nothing bad happened to us yet( something bad usually happens to us in May) and for the past 3 days I've also seen that rare cardinal that's half red and half black I like to think is an Angel Bird sent by my mother to let me know she's looking  out for me still and watching over us, and I heard someone refer to squirrels as tree rats  and now I think I'll call them that from now on,too.

I also really LOVE this Gypsy-style dress and also like the pants below, and this morning I luxuriated in my bath bomb that looked like a pink cupcake with white frosting on top but I thought smelled like grapefruit and now I just have the jasmine one left, and my hubby found a guy to cut the grass for less than the youngest charges, and the 30 YR old told me he saw the strangest thing yesterday,too: a dog that was half Chihuahua and half black Lab and I laughed and said, What did that look like? and he said it looked like a black Corgi and I said, I hope to God that the poor little Chihuahua wasn't the mother... and he said the Lab was( thank God!) but I wonder how exactly they did The Deed though? Did the Chihuahua have to stand up on a chair or something or did the Lab have to lay down? HA! I also thought part of Beja's tail was missing as I could only see the brown half at the top and not the white half  at the bottom but it turned out it was just hidden with the blanket.

My hubby also got these neck fan things that look sort of like headphones that cool you down in the summer heat for everyone and I said they "look weird" so he returned mine even though I was  still going to use it for my suntan and with my kids not even calling me on Mother's Day, saying that they're "happy they finally broke me" ,telling me to kill myself, etc. now they're all grown I don't have to put up with their shit and I'm done with the whole lot of them and they're not my problem anymore.

I'm finally free.

I'm on my way from misery to happiness today I'm on my way from misery to happiness today I'm on my way to what I want from this world And years from now you'll make it to the next world.-The Proclaimers

 

Daily Larf.

 

Happenings.

Here is my cousin SCUBA diving in the Red Sea and we still haven't seen Tony The Fence yet and I've sort of just given up on him actually and don't really expect to see him and we'll be lucky if we even get the fence fixed by the end of summer, and the 30 YR old will finally be getting his unemployment $$$ he's been waiting for since January( that's been 5 months!) as they've finally resolved whatever problem they had with his birth certificate and he'll be getting all back pay and may even be able to pay off his credit card debt(or at least part of it) and  today every towel in the house is in the laundry and yesterday Beja came frantically running downstairs to me scared  and trembling and telling me something bit his ass so my guess would be whatever animal must have come in the house from outside and is hiding out somewhere in the house and must be nocturnal because we never see it and my guess is it hides out under someone's bed all day.

I also heard a 13 YR old near Toronto randomly just stabbed this woman to death outside her home and now they're starting so young  and the radio station was giving away a prize to see redneck wrestling and awhile ago to see boring golf and I swear they have the worst prizes not even worth calling in for, and I heard there's a charity marathon called Walk For Brain at first I thought said was Walk For Brian and I thought to myself, Who the hell is Brian? ha,ha.The dinky little fair is also in town again and I remember when the kids were teens they used to go to it with their friends and it only has something pitiful like 6 rides.

I also like this shirt, and  I'm remembering funny times from my childhood,too, which  incl. the time I told my mother my highschool French teacher "gave me a French Kiss" and she was horrified until I explained to her it was a kiss on both cheeks; she thought I meant with tongue( ha,ha, no, ewwww) and when I was little I always thought that when people were hung it was by their feet upside-down( and not by their neck) but the reason why was I had seen a photo of Mussolini and he WAS hanging upside-down by his feet, and being autistic( although no one knew at the time why) I've always been "emotionally immature" and got along better with younger kids than kids my own age, and as a teen neighbours whispered about me I was a pedophile because I hung around the younger kids and it wasn't true of course, and it broke my heart. It's just my body was grown up but my mind wasn't.

I also wonder if the reason maybe I didn't die with Buddy like I wanted was because God is now giving me a new chapter in life now the kids are grown up and I'm starting over again and going to actually live  and not  just survive  and I can feel I'm actually healing now too  after losing my mother and Buddy and can even feel something "shifting" , and a reassuring feeling that my mother and Buddy are happy on the Other Side and that I'm going to be OK.

I'm not expected to grow flowers in the desert.-Big Country

 

Weekend Words.

Truth.

...and not sure where I am or what day it is.

God gave Rock & Roll to you.-KISS

Pushed too far pulled too hard, deeply scarred I know you must have felt the pain But you took it like a woman.-Alice Cooper

My family.

You've got to fly (fly high) Fly to the angels All the stars in the sky Shine in your name, yeah.-Mark Slaughter

I miss those days.

I'm not being difficult. I'm desperately trying to get my needs met. There's a difference.-Nicole Fillipone

Sweet Jamaica If you love Jamaica let me see your hand! Raise it to the sky let me see your hand! If you love Jamaica let me see your hand!-Mr.Vegas

Miss you miss you all my soul Miss you miss you can't feel whole.-54-40

Dear Mister Darkness, I write you again I've been so lonely, I'm needing a friend Everyone tells me, you'll never reply But I still try.-Ozzy Osbourne

My walls are covered with pictures of you I fantasize that you are here in my room Most days I wake up just wanting to die But I still try.-Ozzy Osbourne

We can drive it home with one headlight.-The Wallflowers

Molotov is my fave. cocktail.😂

Time has to pass and maybe one day I'll have a little light.-Elena