Lilac Hunt.

Yesterday I went for my annual lilac hunt and harvest by the waterfront and there used to be 5 or so big lilac bushes but now there's only 2 small ones left after that bad ice storm we had and so many trees got damaged,incl. 3 of the lilac bushes. I wish you could smell these photos. I still got enough though and it was still a sad thing to see. I also brought the mouse trap and set 2 baby mice we'd caught free although I know they're still going to die as they're just babies(extra small with fluffy grey fur) and need their mother and will get picked up by predators anyway. It was also really windy, cloudy and cold and 13 C it felt like fall yesterday and I was so cold I was actually even shivering! it's supposed to be like that all this week,actually.

Shit.

Where's the sun, and this is supposed to also be the unofficial start of summer,too!

I also got a notice a few days ago my dreads have been shipped and should arrive between 21-26th and it costs an extra 100$ too between shipping and duty tax( f*ck!) but we all have to pay for the important things in life and I just hope they come before the anticipated postal strike ( yet again just like they did 6 months ago, and they want a 24 % raise and who the hell gets that,anyway?) 

Greedy f*ckers.

Here is the 30 YR old with his new haircut and I used to always say Lookin' sharp for the ladies but now I had to switch it to Lookin' sharp for the lady and Beja did a shit on the landing on the third floor stairs and he said to me, You have to train him! which hurt because I am, but I'm pretty sure he's still a puppy and it just takes time  and you have to be patient but I DO put him outside several times a day to "go" and sometimes he does and sometimes he doesn't but that's all I can do. He also looks bigger than when I first got him a month ago so I think I'm right about him still being a puppy. I'm always being reprimanded too, being autistic, my whole life: Don't touch that! Stop being so loud! Stop repeating yourself! Stop asking so many questions! Stop talking so much! Do this, do that, don't do this, don't do that, etc. always missing the mark, never measuring up, never meeting expectations, never being good enough.

Beja also is impossible to cut his nails; he really wiggles and squirms and scratches and bites and jumps out of my arms, practically does a flip trying to escape, he just goes bat-shit crazy, even enlisting my hubby to help Here, you hold him while I cut his nails...still didn't work, but the 30 YR old's GF said you can get sort of a "straight jacket" harness( some are shown here) to restrain him for nail trimming so we ordered one off Amazon  and it should come today. I've never had issues trimming any of my dogs' nails before; I just always did it from when they were little and they got used to it but Beja is terrified of it. I remember my Babushka had this miniature black Poodle that wouldn't let her nails be cut either only she had to even take it to the vet and have it put under with an anesthetic! Holy shit!

The matrix will go through unimaginable lengths to keep you inside it. Suicide is a sin but you don't even have the free will to kill yourself. Think about this for a sec

-Venus