Texas-Sized.

This is my friend P who lives in Texas and her ginormous sunflowers! I guess it really is true that things really ARE bigger in Texas! Here they don't bloom until later summer(and people didn't even start planting until late May) and she's even been able to harvest alot of veggies from her garden as well, something we can't do until later summer/early fall. I also wonder if maybe they don't have the squirrels(tree rats) in Texas like we have here because they kept eating and killing MY sunflowers so I eventually just gave up. Today is also child # 9's 24th birthday and of all the kids she's always been the cruelest to me but has always been a Mean Girl ,too, and looks down on and insults people that are fat, ugly, or that she deems doesn't have any 'fashion sense" and are "beneath" her and she was also the one as a kid that cracked everyone up at Christmas writing a letter to Santa addressing it as Dear Satan  and a gift from Santa as From Satan  and now I know she's dyslexic it makes sense but it was still funny. Summer also starts tomorrow as well(and it's supposed to get to 35 C next week,too, and that's just the temp, NOT the humidex!) and last summer my mother and Buddy were still here and now they're both gone and next month will my mother's first birthday without her,too.

The 30 YR old also finally got his 5 months' back-pay unemployment $$$ and it was enough to pay off his credit card  and he said he moved his bed into another room due to mold from his window A/C and he was also really mean to me yesterday and really ripped into me for using one of his "special" washcloths( he has dozens and I even wash them for him if he puts them in the laundry) even though it was for an emergency( the toilet was overflowing and I needed to grab something quick to clean the mess and that was the closest and he still had others he could use and he's always taking my stuff and never asks) and then he goes on how if he'd put that on his face he would be "poisoned" and not be able to go to work that day(and said his dermatologist said he has to wash his face with "sterile" stuff, even though no one else in the world has to) and I told him he was just being obsessive and ridiculous and that it wasn't 'sterile" to begin with; sterile is like in an operating room and anything laying on the bathroom counter exposed to air, dust, etc. is NOT sterile and he said for me to not use them, touch them, etc. or I "contaminate" it and he called me a "retard" and said he's not going to explain it to me because he "won't be able to make me any smarter..."

I told him to f*ck off and that he was being an asshole and  he's not telling me what to do or talking to me like that or being disrespectful; it's MY house and if he doesn't like it I think it's time that he moves out. He was talking down to me and bossing me around like I'm a kid and I don't have to take their shit anymore now they're all grown up.I've had enough and I'm just done with them and their disrespect and all their shit.Once they all move out and leave home I will feel free, like being released from a prison sentence.

 It was also exactly 2 months yesterday since I got Beja and  he brings so much love, joy, happiness, light,laughter, and healing into my life and is a gift from God and his nose used to be brown but now I notice it's changing to pink and it also looks like his green eyes are starting to turn brown and it makes me sad as I love those beautiful emerald eyes, and also more proof that he's probably still a puppy like I suspected and I cooked a frozen pizza too but didn't realize until after I had cooked it and taken it out of the oven it had a paper and cardboard underneath.

Ooops!

I also heard a radio ad they said Stevens, with a "ph" and I thought to myself, Phevens? and then realized they must have meant Stephens and USA now tells Iran to surrender even though they were attacked first  and Israel started it and Iran launched a missile at a hospital in Israel too and now they're furious and vowed revenge even though they do that to Gaza all the time and growing up I've been "conditioned" by the media and society to believe that Iran was the Bad Guy when here all along it was Israel but everyone still hates and blames Iran and sides with Israel despite it because Iran is Muslim.

Trump has turned a friend into an enemy, an ally into an opponent.-William Russiello