We're into yet another heatwave and yesterday as I was sitting out on the back porch I saw a squirrel drag out one of the kids' old Kirby plushies from the shed and drag it on to the yard and I didn't know if I should laugh or cry. My abdomenal pain was also sooooo baaad I almost puked and it was tha kind of pain that makes you lie down on your side and bend your knees up to your chest and just moan. I also heard Phil Collins is not doing well and is in Hospice care now,the poor guy, and my hubby's shoulder is worse, so Physio hasn't helped and it might be something more to it( even though he refuses to admit he's getting old and falling apart) and I told him he might want to see a doctor about it. My sight and hearing is also really bad now but my sense of smell is really good,almost as if it "makes up" for it and I can even smell it before it rains!
Yesterday my hubby also tore into me not liking the way I did the dishes; I loaded the dishwasher "wrong", at least according to him and honestly I'm tired of always being criticized and nothing I do is ever enough or right or good enough so I told him from now on I won't even DO it anymore then and he can just do it himself , the way he likes , and he taunted, Ooooh, it's so hard; you press a button on the dishwasher! Ok, then it won't be a problem for him then,will it? Maybe I should also stop cooking, doing laundry, garbage, and everything else I do around here that no one ever seems to notice or appreciate but only criticize? Maybe then they'll see exactly how much I actually do once I stop doing it? Even though I can no longer do as much as I used to when I was young and in good health I still do what I can.
My hubby also said the others at his pickleball are all so rich, incl. one guy who is selling his house and thinks he'll easily get 5 million$ for it and another who has a Louis Vuitton gym bag, for example, and then there's my hubby who got his gym bag at Wal-Mart, ha,ha, and when he told the 30 YR old how Beja (who I also noticed has freckles on his willy!) can stand up on his hind legs and walk he said I must have a natural gift for training dogs and then they both laughed so I don't know if it was sarcastic or actually an oddly genuine compliment between my autism I can't always tell if someone is being serious or not and plus they always make fun of me,too, so I naturally assume it's probably an insult, and knowing them it probably was, so just in case I just ignored it and pretended I didn't hear it
Do what makes your heart feel full.-Holly Butcher
No comments:
Post a Comment