Holding On.

I found this yesterday as it showed up on my feed and at just the right time.

I really needed to hear this.

God always seems to have a way of  perfect timing.

Last night I also had this weird dream I bought a Chihuahua carrier for Beja from Judy Blume(I read all of her books as a kid) and she also offered if I wanted a Dachshund so of couse I said YES! I had another dream as  well I remembered when I woke up but forgot now. Beja never jumped off the bed last night like he did the other night before and looking back I think I might know why: yesterday he barfed twice and had diarrhrea( likely some crap he ate off the floor or carpet like he always does) and he probably didn't want to do it in my bed( which is a good thing!) so even though it appeared he was being bad he was actually being good. It's sad as well: the youngest ignores him and when he comes back from somewhere Beja would run over to him,excited, and bring his toy wanting to play(like he does with all of us) but he just ignored him so now he doesn't even bother anymore. I also heard Stairway To Heaven on the radio again, so that's something like 3-4 days in a row.

THIS is also a good reminder to all those so-called "Christians" who hate all the immigration and complain about "all the Indians" and want to deport all the "brown people", WWJD,and yesterday 2 guys also came to haul off all our heavy garbage in the trailer( eg. my mother's old pee & shit stained mattress,etc) to the dump and charged 250$ and I nearly shit a brick!

Holy shit!

Just for garbage?

Too bad we couldn't just dump it off somewhere for free! 

The guys also have Dungeons & Dragons today with their friends and my hubby got the days wrong( as always!) thinking it was yesterday and the 18 YR old had to tell him it was actually today  and he said to me, You'll have to cancel the strippers as I have this joke whenever he goes out anywhere I tell him I have male strippers coming over so I replied, It's actually an orgy this time and it's weird as well: Beja doesn't care if he touches any other part of me....but he won't let him touch my boobs and if he does he'll get all mad and growl and bite his hands! It's just the funniest thing ever and then he did something else as well(I won't mention exactly what here because it's too rude) but then Beja *copied*  him and tried to do the exact same thing (because that's how dogs learn, by copying the humans) and I was just absolutely mortified  but my hubby was laughing his ass off so much he was practically crying.

He's such a bad influence.

If I can't speak my truth For fear of being abused I might as well be a mute My voice never used.-The Who