Flight Path.

I saw another Monarch  butterfly( my fave!) yesterday and it's odd: for the past 3 days I always see one fly by at the exact same time every day, between 3 pm and 3: 30 pm so I wonder if it's maybe a sign of something or just that our yard is in their flight path? I hope they don't go extinct though as they've always been my fave. butterflies and I remember growing up seeing all kinds of them. Yesterday Beja also barked at thunder and didn't whimper and hide like a pussy either but faced it and barked like a "man" but I think I might have figured out what scared him and made him skittish and fearful: for the past couple of nights when it's time for bed he'll run and hide under the diningroom table, and he doesn't snuggle entwined in my legs anymore now,either; now he stays on the pillow all night, making me think something happened to him in bed during the night like I maybe had another nocturnal seizure again and possibly hit or kicked him or rolled over onto him and squished him and it traumatized him, making him esp. feel hurt and betrayed as I wasn't conscious and able to react to his distress and stop and help him?

I also got my weed delivery yesterday only it didn't come until 8:30 pm even though I ordered it at 1:30 pm and I got all worried they'd forgotten about me and it cost almost twice as much as usual too because I not only had to buy the usual pre-rolls but now also dried flower for my bong( "James Bong") as well as I haven't had any from the 30 YR old's boss in a long time so now I had to buy it,  and the grass is back to green now as well, and  today is the last nice warm 25 C and then it cools down but still a cold 8 C in the mornings and I could even see my breath! I also noticed someone locked my laundry detergent pods( the stupid child-proof thing) so I couldn't open it and use them, forcing me to use the new one the 30 YR old bought, but I just used a knife and popped the entire lid off. I happen to like my pods as the nice smell is the best part of laundry; having nice scented pillowcases and towels, etc. F*ck that non-scented shit, and I'm not "catering" to the 30 YR old's GF! She's not even family!

I also heard it's common for people with autism to have a bad sense of direction( and I know *I* do!) which might explain why my hubby always gets lost ( and he's notorious for always getting lost trying to find the kids' friends' houses, even when he's been there before) and one of my cousins in Europe is in Florida on vacation with a friend and I hope they don't get detained by ICE as they're not too "fond" of foreigners, and my friend P( from grade 6) usually travels internationally (like I do) but now is doing a Canadian vacay and is in Nova Scotia for a holiday and I bet it cost even more than going to Europe,esp. the airfare!

Someone also used an excavator to steal an ATM which I heard generally has between 50K and 200K in any given machine so they made off with a pretty good haul, and the moment I knew my mother was dying(and wasn't going to recover) was in the ICU when she said, I have to go  and My parents are waiting  and then I had no doubt in my mind it was her Time and it's when I had them call in a priest to administer the Sacrament Of The Sick (The "Last Rites") and I'm so glad that I did, and now I no longer have any more future, hopes, dreams, or aspirations anymore other than dying and being with Buddy again and as much as I love Beja he's not Buddy and it's just not the same, and I heard somewhere as well once on the Other Side you have a choice of eternal life OR deleting yourself and as much as eternal life sounds good I'd only want it if I wasn't me; NOT how I look, feel, and am now; only if I find happiness, peace, healing, love, acceptance, inclusion, and am reunited with Buddy again. If not, deleting my entire existance sounds pretty good....

A new study just out. shows that wives tend to "nag" less when their husbands listen the first fucking time.-Elaine