11 Months.

It's been  exactly 11 months today since my mother died. Almost an entire year already! I can't believe this much time has gone by!  Yesterday we also had periods of intense snow squalls with the extreme wind(I also brought the garbage can inside and still kept it inside today it's still so windy out there) and now we have  a light "dusting" and getting an actual amount of snow Sunday.  Weird as well: yesterday I had this massive headache and also dizzy and blurry vision so I took my BP and it WAS high: 175 over 90-something(normal is 120/80) and  the 31 YR old was watching a movie and I was in the same room so I could hear it too and it was in English but for a short while I couldn't understand a word they said; it sounded like jibberish, as if I had completely forgotten English! It was just sooooo weird! 

The provincial gov't was also hesitant to release the scores of  testing level scores in highschools and I said I bet it was because they were ashamed and embarrassed they were so low and it turned out I was right: in this town, for example, the so-called "best" scored was the French school that got a 7/10 and the second-best was the Catholic school with 6/10 and the worst is the local public school with a laughable 2/10! HA! Public schools are a joke!

Homeschool your kids!!

They're also trying to pass a newer more so-called "stricter" law if you're convicted of "dangerous driving causing death" (incl. DUI) you-get this-woo-hoo, such a "harsh" punishment-lose your driver's license for life.(Now they just lose it for a week)

That's it.

People are still going to drive anyway.

I think they should be jailed for life.

Now Beja only will eat out of my hand( but still not dog food) which I don't mind as it also gains his trust in me and re-enforces our bond like we used to have before the 31 YR old came along and took him off me, and yesterday he even curled up with me on the couch like he used to do before as well, and I couldn't find him to go up to bed and asked where he was and the 31 YR old said he was up with him so I went in his room to get him and saw him and his GF cuddled up in bed together naked( not particularly something that I wanted or needed to see, but thankfully they had the blankets pulled up to their necks so at least I didn't see anything indecent) and even though I do love Beja it's still not like it was with Buddy and nothing will ever be like with Buddy and no one will ever be like Buddy.

He was one-of-a-kind.

I also posted that same photo of Beja on my Facebook Chihuahua group that I posted on Twitter  and it got over 200 replies and no one said anything about the old stained carpet like they did on Twitter; they all just said how cute, adorable, and beautiful Beja is(which I have to admit he is) and the other day the 31 YR old made some racist comment about how "all Black people are criminals" and it's shit like this that pisses me off. 

I did NOT raise the kids racist.

They're been damaged by the world.

I'm also still a person and still matter even if no one else thinks so and everybody matters even if other people don't see it.

Well the key to my survival Was never in much doubt The question was how I could keep sane? Trying to find a way out.-Genesis