Bejalita.

Can you guess what this is?

It's on toilet paper in the bathroom garbage.

You'd probably say blood, right?

Except it's not.

It's actually  dried up apple spice pie scented room deoderizer wax cubes that get plugged into a wall outlet and  heated and melt and emit a wonderful scent. I keep them there for a week before I scoop them out and replace them with a new fresh one.

That's what this is: the old one.

Things usually aren't what they appear to be and what you think they are.

This morning my little Bejalita also came over to my pillow and was licking me on the face (and I'm the only one that lets him do that,too)and I liked it and I'm hoping it'll be his new thing every morning and it's pretty well  only the only time I really see him or get to inter-act with him all day unless the 31 YR old isn't here because he's always off with him. It feels like I don't even have a dog anymore. Last night his GF's Jeep was also blocking my hubby in the driveway again like she often does; she'll park right behind him, boxing him in the driveway and he'll have to tell her or him to get the car out so he can leave. It's really annoying and I don't know why she doesn't just park on the street in front of the house.

It's also only a high of 7 C today and starting to feel like it's changing over from fall to winter...

My friend F ( from grade 6) is also in Japan and I really  need to go away somewhere, too , (and I got an e-mail for Cuba  last night for a week for just over 400$ ( over 65 % off!)  except it was for TODAY and I'd have to get a bathingsuit as my old one got ruined,) and I just have to think of where and when and at least now I don't have to worry about Beja missing me, and yesterday I was sitting out on my front veranda( as it was raining; I usually sit in the backyard on the porch) smoking mi ganja and this proper old gent walked by carrying his sporty Wilson umbrella and gave me this disappointed look and my guess is he could smell the weed first expecting some young pothead or surfer-type dude and not some old lady wearing a cute purple Dachshund Oodie! 😂

I also read somewhere last night that following your Spiritual Awakening ( like I suspect I might be going thru now) you find your purpose as well so I hope so because now I can't even think of one single reason  to even  live, so if there IS one I sure as hell would like God to show me, and I think Judge Judy( I've seen a few episodes before the news comes on) is sort of judgemental, but she is  a judge  though so I guess it's ok, and I heard that People magazine voted some dude named Jonathan Bailey as Sexiest Man Alive!  and I've never even heard of the guy and had to check to see who he even was....and he's NOT even hot! 

Where do they even get these people from,anyway?

For everyone who helped me start And for everything that broke my heart For every breath, for every day of living This is my Thanksgiving.-Don Henley