Blustery.

Yesterday it was 12 C but now a cold front has come thru and both yesterday and today it's sooooooooo windy ( 90 KM) I could hear the wind howling and banging on my bedroom window during the night and our garbage can blew off our veranda and down the driveway with the lid going under the car and power lines and trees are down!  I hope our outdoor lights haven't blown down(I haven't been out yet to check) and for Those People that say it's too "early" to put up your Christmas tree or decorate before December can suck it because we already had our Thanksgiving back in October and most places( at least around here, anyway) have their Santa Claus parades November. My hubby also refuses to get us Advent calendars this year as they've gone up 5 times as much in price since last year but I still got mine anyway as Christmas is NOT the time to be cheap, and I can still remember back when I was 18 or so sitting at the diningroom table doing all our Christmas cards to mail out,(stamps now cost over 1$ each!) over 50 of them but now sadly most of the relatives have died, and it'll be almost a year since my mother died as well and I actually miss her more than I thought I would despite the bad times because I still miss the good times.

I also saw my Angel Bird yesterday after not seeing him for awhile, and Canada Post has finally ended their rotating strikes and reached a settlement but no one even noticed any difference, and I came across a possibility of what I might have that causes my symptoms: Pulmonary Hypertension: where the pressure in the lung arteries is too high causing them to narrow and it eventually also causes the right side of the heart failure. Beja also won't eat now unless we feed him off our plate and he thinks it's our food(and he still won't eat dog food) as he's just a diva ,and I hope the 31 YR old knows when he moves out into the college residence that he's NOT taking him with him; he stays here with me, and hopefully they don't allow pets anyway, and I think it's particularly cruel  that he's stolen him from me,too, because he was all I had after losing Buddy and now I have no one.

Today is also the American Thanksgiving and I am totally and utterly convinced they make an even bigger deal out of it than they do over Christmas( and it's also their biggest travel time,too) and last night I got ripped-off as well: I ordered the Papa John's Papa Bites  which are balls of dough with chicken, pizza sauce, cheese, and garlic butter....except they forgot the garlic butter  and that's the best part  as well as my fave. part!

Doesn't it just figure though? My usual "luck!"

I also used to have this little "spark" every morning when I first got up that would prompt me to continue on each day but I lost it and don't have it anymore, not since Buddy died.

Not even a little spark.

It's just gone now.

Things were never easy for me Peace of mind was hard to find And I needed a place where I could hide Somewhere I could call mine.- Genesis