No One Ever Listens To Me.

Check out this cute little puffer jacket the 31 YR old has on his bottle of wine! How adorable is that? When I first saw it on the table I thought it was another winter coat for Beja and I thought it was cute but thought, Why is it pink?  but then realized it was for the wine. HA! It's just the cutest thing though! Last night as my hubby headed out to play squash and pickleball I said to him the exact same thing I always say every time he goes: 

Don't forget anything and don't over-do it.

...and less than 5 minutes later he comes back as he forgot something (like usual, and the worst one was when he went to NYC and came back an HR after he left as he forgot his passport!) and then afterwards he came back limping and hobbling badly, and he looked like an old man who had a diaper full of shit. He hurt his leg; his calf and kept  painfully limping along going, Ow! ow! ow!.....and today he's stopping by the Walk-In clinic( or in his case, the Crawl-In clinic.)

No one ever listens to me.

I TOLD him so.

His problem is he's an old man now  that still thinks he's a young man and won't accept that he just can't DO the same things the same way like he used to when he was younger.

The 31 YR old also got a haircut and this morning he's with his GF ( who he called "The Love of My Life" which I think is sweet,  but she's also a bad influence on him,too, as before he met her he didn't drink alcohol or do Magic Mushrooms or cocaine, and last night she laughed how they were "both really high on Magic Mushrooms" and then they drove, which is not only stupid but also really, really DANGEROUS) as she gets an olive oil allergy test, and  it hurts me not only that Beja loves him more than me but esp. since he is mine  and I had him first  but at least once he's off at school he'll hardly be around much anymore to steal him away from me  and hopefully I can get my dog back.

This morning my hubby also comes in the bathroom as I was having my bath and he says, surprised, You're naked!  and I told him, Well, yeah, I don't usually have my bath with clothes on.... and they said on the news that the average person will spend just over 2K this year on Christmas gifts and I'm only spending something like 40$, ha,ha, and my BFF liked the photo I posted on Facebook  of my new joints and she asked What is that? so I replied, Joints, doobies, reefers, spliffs, weed, marijuana.... and the neighbours have this really cool multicolour psychedelic swirling lights I can see thru their window I think is just the most amazing awesome thing I asked my hubby how they do it and he said they have a special lightbulb that's like a disco ball so now I know I'm getting one for my bedroom. It will be awesome to lay on my bed and listen to music and watch the lights.

I also miss sitting in the kitchen and seeing Buddy come waddling in and it's the small things that mean the most and I miss the most,  and the saddest thing about him being gone now is I really am and really feel all alone now and I don't have anyone;  I don't have anyone by my side, to have my back, to walk beside me, to love me,  to be their fave. person, to comfort me, to be my best friend, to be my soulmate, to keep me company,  to keep me alive,to lean on, to talk to, to give me purpose in life and a reason to live.

He was my entire world.

My entire life.

My everything.

Please don't ask me what my hobbies are I lost interest in life by the 6th grade.-Karina