On My Mind.

 Have you seen my bonus post about our outdoor Christmas lights Lumiere?

Tim Hortons  had their holiday cookies for charity and God loves the charitable and we love cookies so here you go! Sadly the gov't budget just passed ( 170 yeas and 168 neas, so it was thisclose!) so the gov't didn't fall in a non-confidence vote.

Too bad.

But it came close.

Yesterday was also my friend J ( from the YMCA group in Ottawa) 's birthday and he turned 67. He's also completely grey now and he was just 30 when I first met him. My god, it just makes me feel so old, and he's 9 years older than me, as are most of my old friends in Ottawa who are his age,too, such as F, G, W, T and others, who all went to the same highschool as well. Out of all of us I'm also the only one who had kids and T is married and G was but got divorced.

Today the 31 YR old also writes his entrance exam for the college to see if he can go into the nursing program he wants and I hope he passes, and doing nursing will be good for him I think; it will make him a much more compassionate and empathetic person, which he is definitely not now; I think  seeing firsthand other people in pain, sick, hurt, suffering, dying, worried, scared, grieving, etc. will be good for him. I still don't believe that crazy story either his GF said about them being kicked out of the mall(I really don't think the police can kick you out of a public place just because you "smell" or "look like trouble", I just don't believe it) and my parka getting dry cleaned, esp. when there was no evidence of it. I even wonder if they'd stolen it with the intent to sell it for $$$ (until I caught on and noticed it was missing)which really hurts when I think about it; such disregard, and I wouldn't have a winter coat to wear in the cold when I go out,either!

 The whole idea of it is just so mean.

What a really shitty thing to do.

and to your own mother.

I also had a scary dream last night my mother( who died last year) told me the 22 YR old died I hope isn't actually true, and I also found a new weed place yesterday as well (as I only had 6 doobies left!)that delivered but I got worried at first as I ordered it online around 2 pm and it was 7 pm and still hadn't received it and was scared it was maybe some sort of scam and they just took my $$$ but they brought it after 8 pm, much to my relief. Whew!! I ordered more than my usual ( 30 joints instead of the usual 20 and 14 g of dried flower instead of 7 g) so it will last for longer and I won't have to buy it for awhile.

I also saw a good quote that I liked,too:

I'm not good or bad; I'm just me.

However, surviving and living are not the same thing.-Manoj Krishna Shrestha