Chinese Water Torture.

Look how much snow we have on the roof at the back, easily 2-3 feet! Now we have the livingroom ceiling leaking in 3 places, plus another in the foyer under the window ,and yet another in the second floor hallway from the ceiling from the melting snow on the roof although I have suspicions the living room ceiling one is from the bathroom directly above it, from either the toilet or tub esp,. as it's leaked there before from the ceiling fan when someone has a shower up there,too and it's not even under the roof but has a whole other floor above it.. It's really bad and was leaking for 8 hours yesterday and we have buckets all over the house catching the drips and hearing the constant drip, drip, drip yesterday was like Chinese water torture and I think it will end up driving me completely insane!  My hubby also got mad in a hurry to catch the leak I just grabbed the nearest big bowl which just happened to be his popcorn bowl but I mean I assume he's going to wash it before he uses it and that I wouldn't use a small dish afraid Beja would think it was his on the floor and drink out of it as he walked by but I wasn't concerned my hubby would do that. 😂It has to be a big tall dish he can't reach(and that won't overflow). I also heard Barrie got 300cm( that's 91/2 feet ) of snow since November as well!

I also read a woman who had the stabbing pain behind her eye and headaches like I do had a stroke so maybe it could be that and it makes me wonder, and I cooked my ramen noodles but forgot to put the flavour packet in,  duuuh,and when I first got Beja he wouldn't let me touch his ears, paws, or tail, and now I can, and clean out his ears as well but it's still a fight to cut his nails, even after 9 months, and it's sad,too, when I think about how my dream( to have kids) did  come true but ended up ruining my life and destroying me, and I ended up regretting it, and I still remember the old dial-up Internet as well; that awful screeching sound, and how at times it took 30 minutes to connect, and how you had to get off the computer if someone needed to use the phone.

I can also remember life before the Internet even existed,too.

When I was a kid the most high-tech thing at the time was a calculator.

I also saw this photo which is supposed to be of the latest victim of the ICE killing, trying to "discredit" him in some way (which I think is despicable)and I can't help but wonder if it's even a fake, but even if it's not he still didn't deserve to get shot to death by secret police thugs and it also makes me wonder too if maybe they're even targeting gays, esp. since the other woman they killed was a lesbian,too.I think they just kill anybody though. They're like the modern-day Gestapo. I also have to re-new my home insurance and next week I have to go there and sign something and I have to double-check and make sure as well that we have water damage covered, esp. with our leaking ceilings and remembering in our old Toronto house how our leaking toilet made the kitchen ceiling come crashing down that one time. We can't afford to get it fixed and just hope and pray it doesn't collapse and if it does that insurance will cover it.(and that no one's in the room when it does!) I'm also so tired of always worrying about expenses we can't afford, and worrying about $$$, and just always worrying about everything; it feels like my life is just worry.

I'm sorry that I'm not everything you wanted, and I'm sorry that my best isn't good enough, I'm sorry that everything I do disappoints you.-Anxiety