Check out the size of the icicles outside our house! Holy shit, they must easily be 3-4 feet long! I just hope they don't fall on someone and impale them! It was also mild yesterday, only -2C it almost felt "tropical" esp. compared to the -30C or so we've had lately and my hubby said he even saw a guy wearing shorts( there's always that one guy) and I was tempted to put on my flip-flops and sit out in the sun,ha,ha, but today it's back to cold again( -20C) and on the weekend back to frigid( -36C or so) and then warm up a bit. Yesterday was also apparantly Zombie Pride Day but they only get one day when the gays get an entire month and I don't think that's fair; that's just discrimination.
Today is also child # 7's birthday and he turns 28 and tomorrow is the anniversary of Bob Marley's birth as well. Both the Superbowl and the winter Olympics are this weekend,too, and I don't know which one I care less about and I don't even know which teams are playing and I also couldn't care less. Someone on TV also made a comment about how "old people eat dinner at 4:30 pm" just as my hubby WAS eating his at 4:30 pm, so calling him old but someone online also called me an "elderly woman"(I have to admit that stung) too. The recycling also left 2 of our bins still full and not picked up but did the others. WTF?
When Buddy died I also lost my will to live and then Beja came along and helped heal my heart but when I almost lost him the other day,too, it made me realize that I love him even more than I realized and it just shattered and gutted me, my whole world just fell apart, and my life was over, and when I do die what I hope for on the Other Side is simply to be forgiven for being me, to be reunited with Buddy again and to have a huge garden with lots of various flowers, a clawfoot tub like I had in Toronto, and a replica of my old Toronto house on a tropical beach with palm trees so I can swim in the ocean every day, and to have answers to all my questions, esp. why I've had sooooo many traumatic things happen to me in my life, and I'd also like to be able to fly( although I'm sure you can over there) and not be ugly anymore. My hubby also finally picked up the right Tide Pods for the laundry(it was on sale) so now it will smell the way it should and I can enjoy my pillowcases again, and I heard several police officers in Toronto were arrested for organized crime & corruption but my question is WHO arrests the corrupt cops?
I also saw online somewhere WWIII will start in 3 days, on the 8th and although I doubt it(and I hope not) I hope not esp. since I just bought a month's worth of weed the other day and I want to get my money's worth, and I still have the agonizing abdomenal and back pain and the back pain is in my kidney area so maybe that's it; kidney failure; maybe they're given up fighting the good fight, and I still have the baaaad pinch-y abdomenal cramps as well, and I don't eat much meat and haven't for years ; just the odd bit of chicken here and there and I heard when your kidneys are failing you "turn off" meat so I wonder if that's maybe why? The radio station's also giving away a crappy prize for Valentine's Day: coupons for alcohol, an axe-throwing place, a sex shop, and a pedicure, none of which I have any interest in. It's not even worth calling in.
Everyone's enjoying their life while I'm trying to figure out if mines worth living.-Ari
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