Day By Day.

My back pain is soooooo bad it kept waking me up and is off the charts(abdomenal pain,too, but the back pain eclipses it) and really makes me wonder if it's my kidneys based on location and I still have the cramps & diarrhrea as well and I wonder if it's just my Diverticulitis acting-up again or something more and my chronic cough if it's just due to my Alpha-1 antitrypsin deficiency or something else. I can't tell for sure but whatever it is it's getting worse. We never did get any snow yesterday, despite the warning and so the school buses got cancelled for nothing even though Toronto got walloped by it and now they said we're getting snow tomorrow. I also heard Stairway To Heaven again yesterday and tomorrow would have been Buddy's 20th birthday so it would be "poetic" and poignant if that's the day I die,too. Yesterday I also found my missing lighter: as the snow melted on the back porch there it was and once it dried off it even still works! A neighbour behind us at the back also still not only has his Christmas lights on but his wreaths, garland and red ribbons on the outside of his house,too!

The youngest also needs a criminal background check to work and apparantly you need photo gov't ID for that and his passport expired so he had to go to Service Ontario where he got this other Ontario photo ID card that looks sort of like a driver's license he can use that I never even knew existed but the 31 YR old (who is also doing his Midterms now)also has and he can also hopefully use as ID to get his passport renewed,Adulting is hard. and I heard Netanyahu has cancer and normally I'd feel badly but in this case it couldn't happen to a more deserving guy and he also bemoaned he doesn't understand why everyone hates them(Israel) but my guess would be probably because of their war crimes and genocide in Gaza but that's just a guess, and Prince Andrew reportedly got arrested for his Epstein activities and ALL of them in the Royal family are involved, he's just the one that got caught.

I also love Beja so much I don't even get mad when he has "accidents" in the house; I just clean it up and get on with my day and last night I had a dream him, my hubby, my mother, and I went to Centre Island in Toronto and he got lost and I couldn't find him and they said we were leaving and I told them I wasn't leaving without him  and wasn't going to leave him there and we had to look for him first before we left and I did end up finding him; he had just run off to play with other dogs. My hubby also said "No one gets married anymore" and even though not as many as before there still are some  people who still do and it still matters to them despite society's decline there are still people who value morals, tradition, commitment, family values, and God's Word, and I can't give up weed or chocolate(just on Fridays) for Lent as the weed has eliminated my migraines and there's no way I'm ever going back to that  ever again and it also eases all my pain and giving it up would be like giving up my BP meds; it's medication, and as for chocolate I simply need it to survive, sort of like oxygen.😂My friend F in Ottawa gave up chocolate for the entire 40 days of Lent before but I could *NEVER*  do that!!

Depression is a strange experience. It’s not always sadness. Sometimes it looks like forgetting yourself. You wake up one day and realise the things that make you feel alive now feel like chores, and nothing seems interesting.-Big Ti