Still Processing.

I'm still pondering  and processing on almost losing Beja the other day and on the latest Epstein Files reveals and I'm still really shaken up. Seeing Beja dying and going thru that again(and so soon) really rattled me and the Epstein thing also brought back memories of me being molested by a relative from ages 4-12 although it was just your normal average garden-variety pedophile abuse, nothing Satanic, and I went all those years suppressing it (and not telling anyone until I was in my 20s) thinking it didn't really affect me all that much when in reality I guess it did, and more than I realized. My hubby also doesn't even believe most of the Epstein revelations and thinks that they "just" raped the kids but doubts the Satanic rituals. the sacrifices, dismemberments and disemboweling, and the cannabalism and says it's just over sensationalised, likely just not being able to comprehend it, even though it's all true it's just so horrific for the human brain to wrap around. 

More reports are coming out now too that Whoopi Goldberg even ate babies' brains and I'm not surprised that Trump,Obama, and the Clintons are on there but I WAS surprised the Dalai Lama was( but not too  much since I do remember hearing awhile back he did have a little boy suck on his tongue, the old pervert) and even Bernie Sanders.

Nooooooooo, not Bernie Sanders,too!!!!

Even the ones we thought were the Good Guys turned out to be evil.

It's ALL  of them.

It's all just too much.

But of course because of who they are and the power they hold none of them will ever be held accountable for it and will get away with it.

Today we're also supposed to get a few cm of snow and it's only going to be -5C or so, so mild esp. considering what we've been thru, practically "tropical" and warm enough to put our shorts on and sit out and get some sun, ha,ha, and I heard there's this place in USA called Gobbler's Knob  as well and it just cracked me up so much I laughed my ass off, it just sounds so obscene but there's also a town in Newfoundland named Dildo too which is even funnier, and yesterday  I heard Stairway To Heaven again and it was a really baaaaad pain day too; really baaaaad back and abdomenal pain plus pinching abdomenal cramps and I kept shitting, and also a headache and nauseated as well. Regular weed didn't even touch  it and I had to  "level up" and smoke hash to relieve it .

It hurts when your family be calling you lazy cause little do they know, you're struggling, and still fighting to push and move forward every single day.-Ari