Todestag.

Todestag  is a German word meaning the Anniversary of someone's death.

Today it's been exactly a year since my Buddy died. 😭

Exactly a year ago today I lost my Heart-Dog, my Soulmate, the best friend I've ever had.

I can't believe it's been that long already and it's actually gone by so fast  and I can't believe an entire year has gone by already and I'm still here. I should have died with him and I was supposed to and I tried  but in actual fact part of me did die with him and I'll never be the same. Now I'm just an empty hollow "shell" of what I once was and I rarely even leave the house now and have no desire to go anywhere or do anything since he died and I just basically exist. The raw sting of grief has lessened but I will always love and miss him and he will always hold a special place in my heart and even though I love Beja and he has helped me heal I will never love anyone like I love Buddy and no one will ever love me like he did,either.

What we had together was special and our bond was like no other.

Love survives death and I have comfort in knowing we will be reunited one day again on the Other Side.

It would be nice though if God decided to take me back Home today though.

Look what I saw this morning when I got up!

SNOW!!!

Holy shit!!!!!

All you can do is laugh.

It looks more like Christmas than Easter.

It won't last long though as Thursday it's supposed to go up to 14C but is this craaaaazy or what? It's a good thing my hubby didn't take the snow tires off the car yet but I also told  him last night to put the cover-thingy on the windshield as I heard we were supposed to get 5-10 cm so just in case.....but of course no one ever listens to me and he didn't so ha,ha!  Now he can lick it off with his tongue for all I care! Of course the school buses were cancelled today as well. On the weekend my hubby's also going up to visit the 26 YR old to celebrate her Fish Appreciation Day party as fish are her fave. animal.

Yes, I know.

Beja also sticks his tongue out and looks like a little retard (my hubby calls it Derp Face) but he's MY little retard and I love him, and I think it's odd as well the astronauts circling around the moon but not actually touching down on it and  would be like driving all the way to Disneyland  and getting to the entrance and saying, "There it is, kids!" and not actually going in and just turning around and driving back again. It also strikes me as suspicious that they supposedly landed on the moon over 50 years ago yet never went back since, so did they really ....or was it just staged  because the Americans didn't want the Russians to "beat" them in the "Space Race?" It does make you wonder. In a survey a majority of Canadians also said they'd agree to becoming a part of the EU (even though geographically  NOT possible, obviously) and I'd like that since I've always loved Europe and that way next time I go back I get to stand in the shorter line in immigration for EU passport holders instead of the loooooong Non-EU-passport holder line I always have to wait hours in!

It feels like I'm always walking along the border between life and death.