Mother Of The Year.

 Have you seen my last night's post I Do And I Do?

This is the wall in my little computer nook.

I love it.

It's so homey and cozy.

The sunflower art and the one with the hippo & Dachshund are gifts from my hubby and the Bob Marley reflective picture below the sunflowers( you can't really see due to the glare) is 3D and I got it at the CNE.  There are also little photos of Buddy and the kids that my mother used to have at the LTC home in her room  I inherited and The Jesus clock used to work but now is just decor and the Cross I got when I was in the Holy land and the big  Eiffel Tower painting used to be in the 24 YR old's room but since she moved to BC several years ago I pilfered it and the little rag doll on my desk I got in Grand Turk.

I like my cozy little cubbyhole.

It's my own quiet, private place.

Yesterday I also just realized, much to my horror, that it child # 8's 27th birthday the other day, on the 29th 

and I totally forgot.

This is the FIRST time I ever forgot a birthday.

My mind must really be "going."

I feel so mortified.

We've just been so preoccupied with my hubby going away this weekend and me with getting my passport re-newed it just slipped both our minds but  I did have this feeling though that 29 May was a special, significant day for some reason tthough, but I just figured maybe it meant I was going to die on that day.....

and then yesterday I suddenly realized.....

"Hey.....isn't-------'s birthday sometime soon,at the end of May?"

Oooops.

I also realized that the 27 YR old is the only one out of all the kids who doesn't have a pet, and every time I see the 30 YR old's fiance he gets more and more "Punk" all the time, with piercings, black clothing,etc. but when I first met him he was a dorky science nerd( he has a PhD in some kind of science) making me wonder if he's being "influenced" in some way by him (as he's been an Emo, Goth & Punk since a teen) trying to change himself to please him,or if (I hope it's this one instead) rather instead he was always "secretly" like that on the inside and it was just suppressed all these years(he grew up Jehovah's Witness) and he's given him the "courage" to "come out" and be his true self?

This is also the passport form I have to fill out to re-new and I just hate...no, I abhor and detest filling out gov't forms and it's always so confusing and I always end up doing something wrong and have to re-do it(so this is why I got 2 copies) and they usually end up rejecting it and sending it back and I have to re-do it again. They say it's also supposed to take 30 days ( ha,ha,...yeah.....my ass) but usually ends up being 6-8 weeks. I also heard someone on the radio say what I thought was gym-noid  and I wondered what it was but it actually ended up t be gemini, the stupid zodiac crap and the dance teacher at the studio across the street was also the dance instructor that taught the couple locally that won the dance competition, and I heard there's this charity run called Run For Brain Health at first I thought was Run For Brian Health  and it made me laugh and I wondered who Brian was and why they were running for him!  BC and Alberta( where some of our kids live) are also expecting torrential rain and flooding, and even evacuating!

Shit!

Suicide is wonderful. It's liberation from the suffering of living.-K8n78mwwrm