Helter Swelter.

We've started the heatwave and it's so hot you can even smell  the heat and this is the coolest part of the backyard on the porch, under the shade of the Black Walnut tree and canopy but we have the A/C on now and I shared a cream soda ice freezie with Beja which he licked off my hand and my shirt was all soaking wet with sweat he liked sniffing it like he does with my hubby's stinky sweaty socks after he plays pickleball. 

Ewww!!

He's just sooooo gross!

Yesterday I also had the simple pleasure of watching a squirrel hanging upside-down eating mulberries from our tree.

I also sent this cute photo of Beja chewing on his bone to help get my hubby thru the next few days away,ha,ha, and he said for the first 3 rounds of the tournament he won 2 and lost 1 and I just hope the car's still there at the airport parking lot where he left it 2 weeks ago and hasn't been stolen, stripped for parts, vandalized, etc. and now the PM is asking citizens to rasie $$$ to repair his official residence and doing a Go Fund Me page as well and I can't even afford to repair my OWN house so f*ck that.

He can suck it.

This is also the progress on the Back Walnut fruit on our tree, growing bigger day by day and I realized granola bars are really just bird seeds held together by honey and formed into bar shapes but I still like them regardless, and even though I may be the pudgy, dumpy, wrinkled caterpillar now once I cross over to the Other Side I'll transform into a beautiful butterfly and will be able to fly,too,  and now not only am I mentally disabled but I'm also financially disabled,too.

I also took this photo of Beja looking thru the fence being nosey as usual. He's the Neighbourhood Watch. Someone on Twitter  also said it was "inappropriate" (ha,ha!) and censored it, shown below which cracked me up and I thought was just hilarious and the funniest thing ever.

I also can't figure out that even the kids I was really close to when they were younger( that would be the oldest, the 31 YR old, and the 23 YR old) want nothing to do with me now and I have no idea why or what I even did  ; I'm just me , the same I always was, but my only guess would be that when they younger they didn't notice or care about my autism and bipolar; I was just their quirky off-beat mother but as they got older they realized it and it embarrassed them?

I'm such a loser I'm not even my own dog's favourite person. 😭

But Buddy had happy tail wags for me every day and I miss that.

I know I’m doing to die, I just don’t have a date yet.-Adrian Webb