Simple Things.

Look! Yesterday I got my first sunflowers of the summer! Yahoo! It really is the simple things that make me the happiest.

I also saw that fat raccoon last night out on the back porch when I put Beja out to pee before bed and the dance studio across the street has their day camp again and tomorrow it's going up to an ungodly 36C with the humidex of 45C so likely too hot to even go outside and this morning as I was waking up I heard Stairway To Heaven  on the radio again. I just love that song and it always reminds me of Jr. High and highschool dances; they always played that song at the very end for the Last Dance. Yesterday the next door neighbours were also having a BBQ and both Beja and I were jealous and he kept sniffing his snoot up in the air savouring the aroma but it mostly just reminded me of how our Ottawa house smelled like after our fire 30 years ago. 

The youngest also starts his 3rd tax accounting course again soon and my friend F( from grade 6) who is an accountant is retiring and he's just 60. He's a year older than me even though we were in the same grade as he was held back a year and not because he's stupid because he's not; he's very smart, but because when he moved here he couldn't speak English(he's Chinese) so they held him back a year. I can also still remember him being teased by the other kids because he wore his older sibling's hand-me-downs that were too small and he always wore pants that were too short and they'd taunt him, "Floods!" "Flood's over!" but just look at him now, he showed them,so successful, him and his wife have Rolex watches and he buys his wife & daughter designer Gucci  and Chanel clothes and purses and when his kids went into university he bought them a new Mercerdes and BMW,  and he even supports his wife's entire family in the Phillipines,etc. so now he can laugh all the way to the bank and the bullies are likely in prison now or dead from an overdose...

I also decided to give Beja the surname of Dyson because he sucks everything off the carpet and floor like a vacuum cleaner,ha,ha, and now not only do I still have the baaaad abdomenal pain and cramps but also pain on my right side in the middle as well, and some people think I'm a bitch because I'm an assertive woman who says it like it is, sticks up for myself, speaks out, and doesn't take any shit, and it's sad now,too, to see kids in summer aren't the same as when I was a kid; they don't go swimming anymore, or go to the park, or ride their bikes & skateboards or just hang out with friends; they just text & play games on their phones.  Racial slurs have also changed; it used to be paki  and chink  and it's now jeet.It's also sad to realize when my hubby and I met we both had 2 living parents(and for several years afterwards as well) but now we're both orphans and I really miss the 70s and 80s and wish I could go back.

You ever catch yourself smiling at an old memory, then immediately feel sad because you know that version of life isn't coming back.-Detach