Summer Daze.

The past 2 days or so it's been hot & humid; 30 C with humidex of 35 C(and just north of where the 29 YR old lives they even had a tornado!!) but my poor relatives  who live in Europe are just melting; it's been 46 C and that's not even the humidex and for the most part don't have A/C,either! Yikes!  Last night the Canada Day fireworks the township put on also woke me up with the loud bang and booms  I thought at first was thunder and the first thing I thought was oh, shit, I left my patio cushions out!!  The 30 YR old and his GF also went to the celebrations and he wore these really gay 70's-style pants; white, flared, polyester, and with a wrap-around waist(it's ok for girls, just not guys) but fortunately he's secure enough in his masculinity,ha,ha, but later changed into jeans which is a much more sensible choice sitting on grass at the park as grass and dirt stains would be really hard to get out of white pants!

I love these funky pants I'm too fat for now but would have been perfect for me before when I was younger and thin; I would have really rocked  them, and yesterday my Boo (Beja) was so cute hiding behind a chair and barking playing Peek-A-Boo with the 30 YR old's GF and I got a real scare as well: for awhile I couldn't find him and I panicked afraid he'd somehow snuck out and ran off and my heart just sank; I thought I'd lost him,too, but it turned out he was just up with the 30 YR old in his room, but then eventually got kicked out when they (I assume) were going to Get It On (him & his GF) and he came running downstairs and I was just so relieved, thank God! That was why he didn't come before when I called him as he was in the bedroom with the door closed! He also really missed me too the other day when I went out to the store and was so excited to see me when I got back home.He practically did flips in the air!

The other day the 30 YR old and his GF also found an injured bird on the sidewalk so they brought it to the bird sanctuary...except they said it's an invasive species so will likely kill it....ooops; they unknowingly handed it over for a death sentence...and my Twitter got over 17K views in just the last 7 days as well, and now Trump threatened to deport Elon Musk back to South Africa and he's just like a little kid: "I had a fight with my friend so now I'm sending him  home!" People also say PM Carney "caved" to Trump by scrapping that stupid Digital Tax(which WAS ridiculous to begin with anyway)  but I think he merely compromised  in this case as you DO in trade talks or in any negotiations, and my allergies were soooo bad yesterday as well I had to take both a Benadryl and a Reactine and as I was bagging & tagging the garbage I saw what I first thought were grains of rice but it was white and the last rice I cooked was Pilaf....which is yellow, not white...

and then they started squirming

uh, oh...rice doesn't move

then I realized they were actually maggots!!!!

ewwwww!!!!

The last decade broke a lot of people, and I don't think they are ever leaving the matrix.-Kevin On X

 

My Place In My Family.

I got this off Quora and it perfectly describes my place in my toxic family and how they treat me:

Mary Leachman

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What are some signs that you’re the scapegoat of the family?

Being treated differently than everyone else—and not in a good way. Always being “wrong”—even when you are right. No one taking your side even when you’re right or you have been harmed in some way. Being left out of family news/gossip/events. No one calling you—unless they want to get information from you. No one sharing good news in the family such as weddings and birth announcements. Not receiving invitations to weddings, family reunions, etc. Not getting any phone calls or cards on your birthday or holidays. People spend far less time or money on you than they do other people they care about. You are not given an equal share. You are given less than others. No one cares about your needs, wants, and feelings. You feel as if you just can’t win with these people (the ones who are scapegoating you) and you would be better off without them in your life.

 

Today's Musing.

 

Getting By.

Nothing much really going on except I like this pretty dress and I still have the really baaad abdomenal, back,and right side pain, and I'm so sweaty I almost pass-out and last night in bed I also had these really bad chest pains as well; so painful it took my breath away and I actually thought I was even having a heart-attack and so I waited for The End  and The Angel Of Death to come take me but it eventually passed, much to my utter disappointment. I thought this was finally my chance to be set free and be reunited with Buddy again. Beja also did shits yesterday so he doesn't have a bowel obstruction, much to my relief. I swear, I worry as much over my dogs as I do for my kids! I also notice I look really pale this morning,too(even with my tan!) and even my tongue is white( as opposed to the usual pink) so maybe I have internal bleeding? The 30 YR old also somehow got it into his head that my hubby already paid Tony The Fence before he did any work and he just took off (and then went around telling everyone that)even though he hasn't paid him yet and won't until the job is done (he's NOT that stupid!)and then he insists that *I* told him that when I didn't but he's always coming up with these false memories and twisting things around and getting things mixed-up.Maybe it's from all his concussions?

My hubby's constantly glued to his stupid phone as well, even when he's on the toilet, or in a restaurant, etc; it's never away from his ear and even Beja gets fed-up with it and barks at him for attention as if saying Get off your stupid phone for once and pay attention to me!! and I heard there's this 'ho who already f*cked 10 guys(anyone who's f*cked 10 guys is a 'ho, regardless of age though) before she was even 17 and it disgusts me how women are such whores nowadays and it's just accepted  and no one values virginity or values and morals anymore, and I heard this radio ad was well selling "drivers and irons" I have no idea what that even is but my guess would be probably something to do with cars, and the 30 YR old referred to his GF yesterday as the love of my life  so I wonder if he's going to ask her to marry him I just hope he's careful and doesn't fall too deep; I just don't want him getting used, taken advantage of, heartbroken or hurt.

If we still have time, we might still get by Every time I think about it, I wanna cry With bombs and the Devil, and the kids keep comin' No way to breathe easy, no time to be young.-Heart

 

Thoughts For Tuesday.

That's all that really matters, anyway.

Lost what I've been dreaming of One eye open, one eye shut Lost the only ones I'll ever love, yeah.-Ozzy Osbourne

Chapter 1

Seeing something with 4 stomachs is something they're used to, ha,ha.

Nope.

Dogs are loyal and faithful. People suck.

Conditioned by life.

The best music!

The 18 & 30 YR olds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

More like 45 years!

I miss the age,too; they were so much nicer people then and they used to love me, too.

Noose edition sold separately.

And so as you hear these words Telling you now of my state I tell you to enjoy life I wish I could but it's too late.-Black Sabbath

God does.

They don't care if you're ugly, fat, stupid, or crazy either.

If the only reason you stay is for your dog, who adores and loves you and needs you, then stay for your dog.-Mary Rouban