Musing For The Day.

 

11 Months.

It's been  exactly 11 months today since my mother died. Almost an entire year already! I can't believe this much time has gone by!  Yesterday we also had periods of intense snow squalls with the extreme wind(I also brought the garbage can inside and still kept it inside today it's still so windy out there) and now we have  a light "dusting" and getting an actual amount of snow Sunday.  Weird as well: yesterday I had this massive headache and also dizzy and blurry vision so I took my BP and it WAS high: 175 over 90-something(normal is 120/80) and  the 31 YR old was watching a movie and I was in the same room so I could hear it too and it was in English but for a short while I couldn't understand a word they said; it sounded like jibberish, as if I had completely forgotten English! It was just sooooo weird! 

The provincial gov't was also hesitant to release the scores of  testing level scores in highschools and I said I bet it was because they were ashamed and embarrassed they were so low and it turned out I was right: in this town, for example, the so-called "best" scored was the French school that got a 7/10 and the second-best was the Catholic school with 6/10 and the worst is the local public school with a laughable 2/10! HA! Public schools are a joke!

Homeschool your kids!!

They're also trying to pass a newer more so-called "stricter" law if you're convicted of "dangerous driving causing death" (incl. DUI) you-get this-woo-hoo, such a "harsh" punishment-lose your driver's license for life.(Now they just lose it for a week)

That's it.

People are still going to drive anyway.

I think they should be jailed for life.

Now Beja only will eat out of my hand( but still not dog food) which I don't mind as it also gains his trust in me and re-enforces our bond like we used to have before the 31 YR old came along and took him off me, and yesterday he even curled up with me on the couch like he used to do before as well, and I couldn't find him to go up to bed and asked where he was and the 31 YR old said he was up with him so I went in his room to get him and saw him and his GF cuddled up in bed together naked( not particularly something that I wanted or needed to see, but thankfully they had the blankets pulled up to their necks so at least I didn't see anything indecent) and even though I do love Beja it's still not like it was with Buddy and nothing will ever be like with Buddy and no one will ever be like Buddy.

He was one-of-a-kind.

I also posted that same photo of Beja on my Facebook Chihuahua group that I posted on Twitter  and it got over 200 replies and no one said anything about the old stained carpet like they did on Twitter; they all just said how cute, adorable, and beautiful Beja is(which I have to admit he is) and the other day the 31 YR old made some racist comment about how "all Black people are criminals" and it's shit like this that pisses me off. 

I did NOT raise the kids racist.

They're been damaged by the world.

I'm also still a person and still matter even if no one else thinks so and everybody matters even if other people don't see it.

Well the key to my survival Was never in much doubt The question was how I could keep sane? Trying to find a way out.-Genesis

 

Chuckle For Today.

 

Blustery.

Yesterday it was 12 C but now a cold front has come thru and both yesterday and today it's sooooooooo windy ( 90 KM) I could hear the wind howling and banging on my bedroom window during the night and our garbage can blew off our veranda and down the driveway with the lid going under the car and power lines and trees are down!  I hope our outdoor lights haven't blown down(I haven't been out yet to check) and for Those People that say it's too "early" to put up your Christmas tree or decorate before December can suck it because we already had our Thanksgiving back in October and most places( at least around here, anyway) have their Santa Claus parades November. My hubby also refuses to get us Advent calendars this year as they've gone up 5 times as much in price since last year but I still got mine anyway as Christmas is NOT the time to be cheap, and I can still remember back when I was 18 or so sitting at the diningroom table doing all our Christmas cards to mail out,(stamps now cost over 1$ each!) over 50 of them but now sadly most of the relatives have died, and it'll be almost a year since my mother died as well and I actually miss her more than I thought I would despite the bad times because I still miss the good times.

I also saw my Angel Bird yesterday after not seeing him for awhile, and Canada Post has finally ended their rotating strikes and reached a settlement but no one even noticed any difference, and I came across a possibility of what I might have that causes my symptoms: Pulmonary Hypertension: where the pressure in the lung arteries is too high causing them to narrow and it eventually also causes the right side of the heart failure. Beja also won't eat now unless we feed him off our plate and he thinks it's our food(and he still won't eat dog food) as he's just a diva ,and I hope the 31 YR old knows when he moves out into the college residence that he's NOT taking him with him; he stays here with me, and hopefully they don't allow pets anyway, and I think it's particularly cruel  that he's stolen him from me,too, because he was all I had after losing Buddy and now I have no one.

Today is also the American Thanksgiving and I am totally and utterly convinced they make an even bigger deal out of it than they do over Christmas( and it's also their biggest travel time,too) and last night I got ripped-off as well: I ordered the Papa John's Papa Bites  which are balls of dough with chicken, pizza sauce, cheese, and garlic butter....except they forgot the garlic butter  and that's the best part  as well as my fave. part!

Doesn't it just figure though? My usual "luck!"

I also used to have this little "spark" every morning when I first got up that would prompt me to continue on each day but I lost it and don't have it anymore, not since Buddy died.

Not even a little spark.

It's just gone now.

Things were never easy for me Peace of mind was hard to find And I needed a place where I could hide Somewhere I could call mine.- Genesis

 

Thursday Thoughts.

You'd wipe out, roll down the hill with snow smushed on your face and down your boots but with a smile on your frozen red face.

Wow, that must really be some good weed! 😜

Both.

There's just a meaness in the world.

Talk about a dream, try to make it real Wake up in the night with a fear so real Spend your life waiting for a moment That just don't come Don't waste your time waiting.-Bruce Springsteen

Deporting people...

Things were never easy for me Peace of mind was hard to find And I needed a place where I could hide Somewhere I could call mine.- Genesis

Oh yeah, life goes on Long after the thrill of livin' is gone.- John Cougar