Magical.

Yesterday we got snow, more than forecasted and it's soooo beautiful, I went out the back porch last night and hit the bong just sitting outside watching the snow falling down and it was magical and it felt like I was inside a snowglobe. I took photos and didn't know if they would work in the dark but they did and turned out breath-taking, sort of an old-fashioned black and white effect. It's supposed to snow pretty well every day this week except for today and even a big storm Wednesday with 15-20 cm predicted. The only thing I'll miss from this place we call Earth when I'll die is the beauty of nature; the snow, the grass, the trees, the flowers, birds, etc. and I hope that they still have it on the Other Side, and my biggest concern when I die too is NOT that I won't be remembered but that I won't be missed. Yesterday also started another of my "manic" phases of my bipolar as well, where I feel "up", energetic, happy, alive, cheerful, and like I can fly, almost like a high, and I couldn't get to sleep last night until 1 am either I was so "wound up" but it only lasts a short while( usually just a few days) so I enjoy it while I can as the depressive phase will follow which lasts for much longer, as in months.

This morning when I bent over to pick up laundry I also put my back "out" even more and it hurt sooooo bad I could hardly even move and it even felt like I could feel something ripping and tearing and I literally saw stars and ever since I woke up it also feels like I have this huge "lump" stuck in the middle of my throat as well, and it took me 2 days to read my book as well it normally would only take me 4 hours so with my white matter decline it's affecting my brain( and it was diagnosed by MRI a couple of years before I even started my medical marijuana but nevertheless my hubby still likes to blame the weed and says that smoking it is what caused  my mental decline because he likes to blame it) and with my rude jokes, belching and farting and twisted sense of humour I'm like a teenage boy too which I guess also explains why I'm closest to the oldest and the 28 YR old and get along best with them of all the kids and even in school I always wished that I was Chinese or Greek like most of my friends; I always wanted to be someone else, other than me.

This is also a photo I took to show how messy our house is and what slobs we really are and there's hardly even any room on the table( yes, this is our kitchen table!) to eat, and, in fact, I'm pretty much the only one who even eats at the table; everyone else just eats in the livingroom in front of the TV and we always have so much clutter but neither my mother or I have the energy or the strength with our medical issues to clean and we can't afford a maid, so.....

This is also partial lyrics from a Crosby, Stills, & Nash  song I like called Carry Me:

Carry me, carry me Carry me above this world Carry me, carry me, ooh Carry me above the world And then there was my mother She was lying in white sheets there And she was waiting to die She said if you'd just reach Underneath this bed And untie these weights I could surely fly.

Here is my Sweet Boy, who I love more thyan life, and the other day I asked my hubby to pick up my fave. sour cream & onion chips but he got confused as they had both chips and onion rings in the same flavour and he wasn't sure which ones I wanted so he got both....and at first I just saw the rings and thought, Oh, good God! The idiot got the wrong thing AGAIN!  but then soon also found the chips,and then when I looked closer and saw that it was the rings which I also like I was like, Oh! This time it actually worked out because this way I get both! His company at work also sponsored the badminton club him and the 15 YR old belong to and they got all 35 of them these nice custom-made red and white shirts with cool designs on them, and now Oshawa( near Toronto) is going to actually ban toboganning on hills, saying it's "not safe", worrying about insurance liabilities, etc. and it's just so stupid, like how parks now no longer have Jungle Gyms for the same reason! Toboganning is part of being a kid in winter in Canada! They're still going to do it anyway and just ignore the stupid law! It's just like the Burger Meister in that Christmas show, banning and outlawing fun! This shithole really has become a Fascist Police State! I LOVED toboganning as a kid and teen and I'd still do it now if I could but my back couldn't take it(and I'd probably end up paralyzed) plus I wouldn't even be able to make it up the hill anymore.

US Prez Biden now also got caught with classified documents in his home like he blasted Trump for doing the exact same thing(what a hypocrite! All politicians are just sooo corrupt!!) and at first I thought he was just a senile old man bringing work home from the office and misplacing papers and he simply just forgot, sort of like Where did I leave my glasses? Where did I put my drink? etc? But they found them in his garage and his house so it appears to be a pattern. In the Bible though it did say in the Book Of Revelation  that in the last Days/End Times that Babylon The Great will fall and I think it's the current globalists, the world leaders, the WEF, the New World Order, and you can see it happening already, with NZ's Ardern resigning, with the UK's Johnson, Italy's former PM, Trump, etc...Macron, Trudeau, etc. next? They're falling like dominoes....Yay!!

Its okay to start over and let someone else love u.-Sim