Recovery?

Good news! After not eating anything all day Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday last night Buddy finally ate! He ate almost an entire package of sliced turkey!! That's a hopeful and positive sign that maybe he's improving and on the road to recovery following his stroke Wednesday night! Maybe his body just had to shut down and not eat or do anything but sleep for those few days so that his brain could rest and heal and "re-wire", almost as if he was in a healing coccoon and then he emerged , as if from an induced coma, almost back to the usual Buddy, as now he seems back to his "old self" again other than his head is still tilted to the right side and his walk is unsteady but he's alert and responsive  and back to normal otherwise now and he ate and he's not "spaced-out" or like a zombie anymore. Before it was like "the lights are on but nobody's home" but now it's like he's back; he's been restored to me and I'm ever so so grateful! 

 So I am now cautiously optimistic, hoping that maybe, just maybe, the worst is behind us now and maybe he can survive this and death isn't immiment like it once seemed and maybe he can live even months or longer now and we still have more time together. I just take one day at a time as it comes and pray and enjoy what we have left. I just hope that it wasn't "The Last Hurrah" like people often get just before they die where they seem to "perk up" and have one last "burst" of energy before they die. Hopefully this is the Real Deal and he's actually getting better and on the road to actual recovery! This wouldn't be the first time,either; he's almost died so many times and came thru and been restored to me by the Grace of God and I'm just so thankful as I was prepared for him to die and for my life to be over.

Remember how the 29 YR old also ate half my salsa I got for my nachos and then when I told him off and said he has to buy me another one and then he said that half is his and half is mine? Well, last night I went to get the salsa for my nachos and it was gone! He'd ate it all! His excuse was since he had to pay for it he might as well eat it all so I  never did get any of my salsa and I had to eat the old one I found fermenting at the back of the fridge that had fuzzy white thingies on it I picked off but still was really sour and I'll probably get food poisoning because he's such a pig! It's also so cold it feels like -20C and in Edmonton it was even - 50 C and I'm surprised my bong water didn't all freeze and turn to ice, and in Toronto they've even banned toboganning  on hills and even posted warning signs! The gov't in this shithole always bans everything fun! I think it's their job to be Killers Of Joy!

I also had to re-do this post because our shitty Internet went down and I lost the entire thing, even trying to copy and save it I still lost it and then my hubby got mad and yelled at me because I was mad I lost all my work and freaked-out. I'm NOT even allowed to get upset. He says I'm "annoying and loud" and "hoot and holler like a redneck"(implying I'm a low-life), not caring that I lost all my hard work and don't have the right to be upset or express my anger.He also invalidates me by saying, "You're NOT the only one who has ever lost something on the computer!" he never has any sympathy, empathy, or any sort of caring for me when I get upset, just ridicule, criticism,and blame.

I hate my family, my non-stop bad luck(I'm still waiting for my break to come) and my life.

Sometimes I don't ask questions because I'm afraid to hear the answer.