The Best Part.

I saw this photo of a Dachshund yesterday( she saved her hooman from a snake) and it made me cry as it reminded me of Buddy. I miss him so much and he was the best thing in my life and the best thing that ever happened to me and I will never have a greater blessing. Yesterday Beja and I got to be outside ALL DAY (yay!) too and that's the best part of being alive; laying out in the sun and feeling the warmth of the sun is the best feeling ever and I hope that's what dying feels like( and I have a feeling it is). I also had a poignant emotional moment with Beja yesterday as well: he was nuzzling and kissing me and I realized how much I really do love him and it stirred up my heart because I really didn't think I could love anyone this much after Buddy( and after losing him) and it made me feel grateful and privileged to be able to experience this once again even though no one and nothing will ever "replace" Buddy. Beja also likes to lick the coconut oil off me(I put on to moisturize my skin) and I accidently taught him to be a drug-sniffing dog as well as he's used to me smoking mi ganja and yesterday someone walking by was smoking it and he perked up recognizing the smell and I worried he wasn't feeling well too as he wasn't eating but it turned out he was just full as my hubby had just been feeding him crap all day!😡

I also like these funky cool pants and today the 30 YR old finally went back to work as well as the youngest as it's a big job and the boss needed extra help plus his back isn't fully recovered yet,either, and he can't do his usual share. The youngest didn't like the work and the long commute but last time he earned over 800$ so he changed his mind,ha,ha! My hubby also has a machine in the basement where he makes decals for T-shirts and too bad he doesn't have one that prints $$$ too, and my cousins on vacation in Egypt (Europeans go to Egypt or Turkey like here we go to the Caribbean or Mexico)are also deep-diving in the Red Sea which I think is really cool. I've been on the Red Sea too, but just sailing, not SCUBA diving. I also saw on the news within 2 days 2 restaurants owned by the same owner were arsoned and my guess is it was likely extortion: they likely were told to pay "protection money" OR ELSE and decided to NOT to blackmailed...and yet the cops say they're "not sure" if the 2 cases are related......duuuh....really?

They also said May we got TWICE the amount of rain as usual( I believe it!!)  and King Charles is only here for 2 days too which surprises me, coming all this way for only 2 days and it reminds me of my cousins who went to Paris for the weekend, although they already live in Europe though so it's not quite the same, and the new people who moved in behind us have a motorcycle too and I hear him revving it up and  I love motorcycles and it brings back fond memories for me as going on rides on my friend's motorcycle when I was 20 is one of my fondest memories, and I sent my hubby an e-mail about rattan patio furniture I like if he ever sees it on sale and now I keep seeing ads for it on every site I go to so the Internet is spying on me!

I’m empty inside I just dont feel alive.-Thesadsms