BoHo,Baby!

I love these clothes but now will never order online again I'm paranoid ever since the last time I tried it ended up to be a scam site but luckily my credit card company recognized it in time and cancelled it but just for fun I went to the site just to see how much they were charging....and as soon as I did my computer's security alerted me it was a scam, so what do you know,huh? I was right. Too bad that they don't all do that! I really wish I knew where I really could safely buy these from though as I really LOVE them!! Despite my best efforts to keep Beja safe from eating toxic things he still somehow managed yesterday to eat a Black Walnut blossom that fell on the porch off our tree just as I'd finished picking them off(I do several times daily as seen) as soon as my back was turned and I saw it and told him to drop it and chased after him but he'd run away and had already eaten it and I was so scared he'd die but I did research and it seems the issue is the nuts and husks when fallen to the ground and get mouldy that makes them most toxic and it seems the blossom isn't as much of a risk so I hope he'll be ok but it really worries me.

I swear, it's just like having kids!

Saturday the 30 YR old's GF's car also got a flat tire while they were out so they got back late but luckily they didn't "spin out" and get into an accident and I always pray that God keeps them safe and I'm surprised though too as she has a Jeep and I thought those were pretty rugged, and  yesterday I had this really baaad headache and the vertebrae on the back of my neck also really hurt and still today as well( only worse) and today I'm also dizzy, sneeze, feel cold and such a bad cough last night that kept waking me up so maybe I'm coming down with something,  and I asked my hubby to get me some snapdragon flowers and he thought they were called dragonflies,ha,ha, and yesterday a neighbour behind us was cutting his grass and I just love the smell of fresh-cut grass but my allergies not so much.

Yesterday Beja also protected me! He is a good little guard dog and defended me when my hubby grabbed my boob and tried to lay on top of me on the couch he got mad and barked like crazy and even tried to bite him( ha,ha) thinking he was hurting me but it was nice to know that he loves me and cares and was protecting me to what he thought was danger.

I love him,too.

I also heard that the Red Hot Chili Peppers took 22 years until they finally got their first # 1 hit single (and then they became quite popular) so the lesson here is NEVER GIVE UP.

It's never too late so maybe there still IS time in my life as well to find happiness?

I still don't really have any purpose or meaning in my life though other than to take care of Beja and the only thing I have to look forward to is the Foreigner concert in October and that's it; then there's nothing, other than that I just basically exist and plod thru each day, trying to find joy daily in the little things,basically counting the days until I die and can be with Buddy again but I don't really enjoy life or want to live too long; I just take it day-by-day and Beja keeps me going.

There's also so much in my life I wish I could go back and re-do, un-do,prevent, and change,too, but once a horn has already been blown it can't be un-blown.

Time for me to fly Oh, I've got to set myself free Time for me to fly And that's just how it's got to be I know it hurts to say goodbye But it's time for me to fly (fly).-REO Speedwagon